4E 204 – Testing Mettle

Tara watched her breath plume out into a cold cloud, further obscuring her view of the practice targets.

The blizzard was in full swing now.

When she’d first stepped out into the training yard earlier tonight, after giving up on getting any sleep, Secunda was shining in full glory. Storms came up suddenly in the mountains, though, and what had started as light flurries quickly shifted into whistling winds, and blinding snow fall.

This section of the training yard was hard packed dirt on dry days. It’d quickly descended into a muddy slush.

Tara shifted her feet. The mud was good practice. Keeping one’s balance in such conditions was something she never got a chance to work at.

She shivered as the wind whistled sharply and a gust hit, testing her balance. The mountains were cold, with the Penitus Oculatus outpost high in them. This area of Skyrim, known as The Reach, was normally more temperate, closer to the Rift region she loved. This high up, though, it felt like a different place. Like being near Winterhold, the coldest of the cities.

The outpost sat high above the Dwemer ruins of Bthardamz. On a clear day, she could see the still gleaming metal roofs of the few buildings that sat above ground. The Dwemer with their never corroding metal and ancient stone cities built primarily underground. Most of their ruins were found against the mountain ranges that encircled Skyrim. Tara had never seen so many until she’d arrived here. Cyrodiil had none. Instead, Ayleid ruins dotted the Cyrodiil landscape. Two ancient species of elves, both long gone. On more than one guard duty shift, staring at the distant ruins, she’d mused one day exploring a Dwemer ruin. She wouldn’t venture too far in, just enough to get a sense of what life might have been for those elves. The ruins at least had to be warmer than the outpost.

She’d come outside tonight in her Penitus Oculatus issued armor. Train in what you wear to fight, she’d thought. Like the Imperial Legion’s armor, the PO armor, as she called it in her head, included a leather, pleated kilt for the lower body, exposing one’s legs to the elements. The upper body armor was blackened steel shaped with abdominal muscles, and in her case, an unnecessary mild curve to represent breasts. The abs were meant to intimidate; to indicate a strong body and mind.

Proper layers of cloth and chain mail sat underneath the metal, allowing excellent movement and protection. The cloth sleeves under the pauldrons reached down to her elbows. She didn’t like them, and had sketched out an idea to adjust her armor. She wanted shorter sleeves, to expose her muscles like her leather armor did. She wanted to show her strength. To be more intimidating.

Why? It didn’t help you in Rorikstead.

Tara shivered again and shook her head. Now that she’d taken a short break to catch her breath, the cold was seeping in. She was drenched in both sweat and melted snow. She felt cold water drip off her chin. She sheathed her axes and brushed her hair off her forehead and away from her eyes. Her hair sat plastered to her head. She’d not put on a helmet.

She grabbed her axes again and set her feet. A guard up on the outer walls passed by while making his rounds. The flailing light from his torch cast her practice target in deep, moving shadows.

The targets were simple affairs, wood posts with straw stuffed burlap attached as a head, hands, and body. Red circles were painted on the burlap for targeting weak spots. Some practice dummies had buckets for helmets, and crude wood shields and swords. Tara had chosen one of them for axe practice. She preferred the others for archery.

She shifted her feet again, trying to find a good purchase. Snow was coating everything in white, including the mud pit the training yard had become. The snow was making gaining traction even harder. Tara narrowed her eyes at the target’s head. Adjusting the grip on her right axe, she lunged at the target, aiming for a left feint, then swing from the right axe at the head.

She felt her left boot slide outward in the mud, shifted her weight over to her right and turned her hips. The adjustment worked, and she felt steady as she planted her right foot and took a swing. She connected solidly with her axe, then heard the crack.

The target’s head flew off, as the wood shattered from the force of her blow. The bucket landed with a plop in the mud five feet away, half of the wood that had been its neck still attached.

“That’s the second target this week,” a deep voice said from behind.

Tara turned to see Lieutenant Fairsong, a Nord in command of the outpost, leaning against the nearest tree. He was out of uniform, instead wearing simple leathers and furs.

How long had he been there? Was he that good at sneaking up on people, or had the blistering wind covered the sounds of his approach?

“I’ll fix it, sir,” Tara yelled. The wind from the storm pulled at every sound, and she had to raise her voice to be heard.

“You will,” he called back. “In the morn…well, later in the morning. Follow me.” Fairsong stepped away from the tree and headed towards the armory.

The outpost was small. Stone walls, topped with wood parapets surrounded them on three sides. One large gate allowed entry into the outpost. The outpost butted up to sheer mountain cliffs, preventing any possible attack from behind.

The only two buildings were the armory and the main building, a three-floor structure consisting of barracks, the common eating and meeting area, plus the lieutenant room and office on the top floor. Both were constructed of the same wood as the parapets on top the walls. The walls had wooden towers on the corners, where most supplies were stored.

Fairsong unlocked the armory and they stepped inside. There was no fireplace here, nothing to keep the building warm. The only relief was getting out of the biting wind. Fairsong seemed unfazed by the cold. Being a Nord, and resistant to the cold, suited someone in command of the outpost. Tara found herself shivering, now that she wasn’t actively lunging at a target. A few lanterns hung along the walls, casting wavering, yellow light around them.

Weapon racks lined one side of the armory. Swords, axes, and bows gleamed from their floor stands. Three mannequins stood at the far end of the room, each hosting a full set of Penitus Oculatus armor. Daggers and quivers of arrows lined several shelves on the wall opposite the weapon racks.

Fairsong stepped over to one shelf and picked up a dagger. He turned and held it out to Tara.

She took the ebony dagger from him and admired it. Ebony was rare and expensive to forge. The gray-black metal was known for its high strength and lack of reflection. A dagger made of it was ideal for quick, stealth kills.

“You don’t have a dagger, correct?” he asked.

Tara shook her head. “No, sir. I was issued a sword. Plus, I have my axes and bow.” Katla’s bow. She’d practiced with Katla’s bow, as the Penitus Oculatus required her to be proficient in both archery and swordsmanship. She’d used Katla’s bow for the first time here. Using the bow was both unreal and comforting. She was keeping it safe for Katla. For her return.

I will be back for my bow.

Tara had never intended to use it. It felt good in her hands, though, she had to admit.

Using it for target practice had been a joy. It was weighted well and its size suited her. Using it helped her feel closer to Katla, too. How often had she watched the woman notch an arrow, draw back, set her breathing, and release a deadly shot? Katla’s skill with it was a thing to behold.

“Ebony,” Tara said, “Now that’s a dagger.”

“You’re ready for your final test,” Fairsong said. “To truly join the Penitus Oculatus.”

“We’re meeting in the armory for a reason, I take it?” They were alone, away from prying eyes and ears. Tara didn’t think that was random. Nor giving her a dagger now, long after issuing the sword.

“You’ve beaten me twice with my Altmer Heritage Stacking Puzzle, three times at Triangle Chess, and I don’t ever intend to play you again at Tales of Tribute,” he smirked. “More than proven your sharp thinking, Blaton.”

Tara gave him a smirk back.

“The final trial varies per agent. We decide based on the current needs of the Empire, and the unproven elements of the agent being tested.”

Fairsong straightened up and narrowed his eyes at her. He lowered his voice.

“You’ve more than proven yourself in physical combat. You have the best axe work I’ve ever seen, and your fighting trial proved your abilities in battle. The Legion taught you well there.”

Tara swallowed and met his gaze. Unproven elements?

“What you need to prove now is something more personal. A skill set that every agent must demonstrate to us. Loyalty to the cause. To what we stand for. To serving the Empire, no matter the task.” His eyes stayed on her.

Tara held her breath.

“There is a Penitus Oculatus agent we believe is a Thalmor spy. You will kill this agent.”

Tara blinked. “I’m to assassinate someone.”

“Yes,” Fairsong said. “We are not the Dark Brotherhood. We are not worshipers of Sithis, killing for money, killing indiscriminately to serve base desires. The Penitus Oculatus does whatever is necessary for the Empire, though. To serve Tamriel. Without question. That is the difference. We only kill those that deserve it.”

Tara nodded and looked down for a moment.

A gust from the roaring blizzard pressed against the building and she felt tendrils of cold air squeeze between the wood slats of the building. Still soaked while standing in this unheated building, she was cold. Or, perhaps cold from her new orders.

“Before you accept this final test. Before you fully commit,” Fairsong said. “Understand this. Failure is not an option. You either kill this agent or die trying. We cannot risk the Thalmor knowing we’ve uncovered some of their spies.”

Tara studied his eyes and saw the truth. If she failed, and the Thalmor discovered her, they’d capture her and probably torture her. The Penitus Oculatus didn’t want that to happen. They’d kill her first to keep the Thalmor from gaining any advantage.

She thought of Rigmor. Her premonition had changed. The other premonition had changed, too, the nightmare one of dark woods and the fire woman. In this moment, though, it was her dreams of Rigmor that mattered.

Was she really about to risk her life in service to the Penitus Oculatus? To an assignment that could only have one outcome. To risk her life for the Empire?

To assassinate someone? For all the deaths she’d caused, all the people buried by her axes, this one felt different. Everyone else before was in defense of herself, or someone she loved.

She’d served the Empire already, though. In the Legion. In a war where she killed for the side she believed had to win. Was this not the same? Was this not her still serving the Empire, serving the Ruby Throne for the betterment of Tamriel? All of Nirn? She wasn’t sure if serving the Empire was enough. The Empire was a faceless entity. She didn’t even know who was Emperor now.

Rigmor was enough, though.

The premonition had changed four months ago, when she arrived at the outpost. It had assured her she was on the correct path to Rigmor. In the premonition now, she knew what she was wearing during the fighting, the clashing of swords she could hear. She was wearing Penitus Oculatus armor. She was defending Rigmor as an agent.

She could do this for Rigmor. This woman who’d been in her dreams for four years.

“I understand and accept,” Tara said. Her voice was as firm as she’d ever heard it.

Fairsong nodded.

He pulled a sealed note out of a hidden pocket within his shirt and held it for her to take. Tara noted the wax seal had the emblem of the Penitus Oculatus on it.

“Do not open and read it until after you’ve left this outpost. The name and some details of the agent are on it. Destroy the note after you’ve read it.” Fairsong paced around the armory. The flickering lanterns enveloped him in a mix of golden light and threatening shadow.

“You leave the morning after tomorrow. You have one more shift later this morning on the wall. Afterwards, pack up. We’ll have a small gathering in the commons tomorrow night, as is customary for all agents that leave the outpost after training. You and two others are headed out these next few days.”

Fairsong stopped pacing and faced her again. “You’ll head to Solitude. You should beat your assignment there. We need you to find out what he’s told the Thalmor, and what he intends to tell them. Kill him covertly when you have the information. He will recognize you…”

“He’s someone here,” Tara said, startled.

“Yes,” Fairsong said. “Your cover is you were assigned to meet with General Tullius. To bring him important information about Stormcloak movements in these mountains. That you’re then headed to Dragon Bridge for a final trial with Commander Maro.”

She knew whomever it was they needed her to kill. Tara closed her eyes. Fairsong had said this was personal, but she’d not imagined this personal. Someone she’d trained with. Maybe one of the men she actually liked. Richton? Lentinus? Maybe Varro? By Dibella, please let it not be one of them.

Tara opened her eyes. She gave Fairsong a salute. “I understand, sir.”

“Hide that letter before you walk out of here,” he said. “Keep it on you at all times.”

Tara nodded and tucked it up under her kilt, in the sewn pocket meant for valuables one might need to carry, even in armor.

“Go get warm,” Fairsong said. His voice softened. “Maybe catch some sleep before your shift. You’ve earned it.”

“Yes, sir,” Tara said.

As she fought through the swirling snow back to the main building, her thoughts raced with the wind.

4E 203 – Mom’s Side

Mira cast a quick healing spell on her hands and watched the fresh blisters shrink and disappear.

When was the last time she’d helped around the farm? When she was ten?

Even then, she’d not really helped. She’d been a kid following Mom around the garden; the personal garden Mom maintained for the vegetables they didn’t produce as a crop. For the vegetables she wanted fresh for dinner.

Mira wasn’t used to any sort of labor and her hands had paid for it today. There had been something soothing about helping Mom weed the garden, though. Making sure the fragile leeks and carrots had a chance to grow. There was a peace to the pulling of the feisty pest plants and working between the vegetables. The steady shifting of dirt as roots released their hold sent a soft patter to Mira’s ears. The physical effort required wasn’t hard, until it added up to several hours of constant bending and standing. There was an unexpected comfort to the exertion, though. Mira thought she’d sleep well tonight.

Most importantly, she was spending quality time with Mom. Softening her.

“I think we’ve got them all,” Mom said. She stood, put her hands on her lower back, and stretched.

“Agreed.” Mira stood and did the same. She heard her spine crack in relief.

“You mind?” Mom asked, holding out her hands. She had several small blisters.

Mira gave her a gentle smile. “Of course not.” She waved her right hand, and Mom’s blisters disappeared.

Back in the house, both women washed up at the water basin in the kitchen. Mira checked the time. She estimated they had at least an hour before Father came home. She needed to get answers.

“Tell me about Tara the Younger,” Mira said. She kept her tone light and curious. Encouraging.

Mom’s pale blue eyes lit up. “You really want to know our family history?” she asked. Mira thought Mom’s voice cautious, not wanting to get too excited.

“I do,” Mira said. Mom had pulled out several potatoes and set to peeling them at the kitchen table. Mira sat and joined in peeling.

“I’m sorry I never asked when I was little,” she added.

“She was the youngest, you know,” Mom said. Her voice sounded as lit up as her eyes still were.

“Tara Geonette had three children. Lysona, then Tristand, then Tara the Younger. If I’m remembering correctly, she was four years younger than Tristand. Lysona was a couple years older than him.”

“Did Tara Geonette marry?” Mira asked. She suspected who the father was, but no books had been definitive.

During their research, Katla had found some entries tracing the family tree of the Ashsmiths. They’d been a powerful noble family, known for their magical prowess, starting in the First Era and continuing to today. Bedore Ashsmith had been the youngest of two, expected to follow in his father’s footsteps as an arch mage for the Mages Guild.

He’d disappeared in 2E 584, though, joining what would become the Order of the Fire Queen. The same book claimed he’d become second in command of the order, leading it for a time. It made no mention of him marrying or having children, and claimed he’d died in 2E 592.

Another book, History of the Mages Guild, claimed he’d been involved in a battle of necromancers and guild mages in the Rivenspire region in 2E 596 and died. Mira was still researching the authors of both books, to see if either had been an order member. She suspected false information had purposely been written in at least one of the books. Contradictions had cropped up regarding Lysona Meric in other books.

“Marry? No, she didn’t,” Mom said. “She had all three children with Bedore Ashsmith, but they didn’t marry.”

“Ah,” Mira said, giving her voice a lift. “Wait. Is that where Father’s name comes from? But, he’s a Blaton, not an Ashsmith.”

“Yes,” Mom gave a tentative smile. “Tara’s name comes from Tara Geonette. Mine is from Elayne Moorford. Yours is from Mira Meric. She was Tara the Younger’s sister-in-law.”

Mira made a mental note. Mira Meric had to be a descendant of Lysona Meric. Mom hadn’t answered why Father was named after Bedore Ashsmith, one of their ancestors.

“How’d they meet, Tara and Bedore?” she asked. They’d finished peeling the potatoes. Mira watched as her mom sliced and cubed them carefully into the stew pot she’d been heating over the kitchen fire. She then started chopping carrots. Mira took a few and helped.

“Oh, well, they…” Mom paused and levied her eyes at Mira. Mira found herself catching her breath. She’d never seen her Mom’s gaze so sharp, so focused. Yet, also cautious.

“What is it?” Mira risked asking.

“Your father never wanted me to tell you any of this,” she said suddenly, straightening up, as if she’d made up her mind about something. “Wouldn’t let me perform the ritual on you, either. I understand about Tara, but you should’ve had it performed…” Her voice trailed off and she looked over at the Tara Geonette painting.

“What ritual?” Mira asked.

Mom cleared her throat and squared her shoulders. She finished chopping the carrots, put down the knife and stared at Mira.

“Your ancestor, the great Tara Geonette, started the Order of the Fire Queen,” Mom said. She heaved a sigh, as if she’d lifted a weight off her shoulders by confessing. “Have you heard of it?’

How to answer Mom?

“I’ve come across the name a few times,” she said. “There doesn’t seem to be much written, though.” Mira leaned forward and widened her eyes, to feign amazement. “She really started an order?”

“Yes!” Mom said. She beamed. She stood and added the carrots to the stew. Mira watched her pull out a wrapped section of beef, fresh from the local butcher, and start carving it into bite-sized chunks, slowly adding them to the stew. Mira’s stomach grumbled. She was famished.

“Tara Geonette was the Fire Queen,” Mom continued. “It was her own order of powerful necromancers. Bedore was one of its first members.”

“Wow,” Mira said. She hoped she conveyed a sense of amazement. “That’s incredible.”

Mom nodded. “She is the reason our family is so good with magic. Why there are so many powerful mages.” Mom stopped cutting the beef and pointed her knife at Mira, as if to emphasize something. “She did it. She made it happen. She made you and Tara happen.”

Mom’s eyes clouded for a moment, and Mira thought she caught a hint of sadness on her face. Mom shook her head and finished chopping up the beef and adding it to the pot. She stirred the stew and raised the stand, letting it simmer.

She sat at the table, her face suddenly more drawn. Almost like the weight was back on her shoulders.

“You know,” she said quietly. “I didn’t want to marry your father.”

Mira remained still.

“I wanted to marry Tristore Ashsmith. Now, there was a real mage. So powerful, even when he was a child.” Mom sighed. “Your grandfather insisted I marry your father, though. Arranged it all.” She looked forlorn.

“Why?” Mira asked. She reached out a hand and placed it over Mom’s. Mom smiled.

“He said the…” She paused and looked cautious. “…something about the best match.” Mom sighed again. “But the history of the Ashsmith’s and Geonette’s! I wanted to be a part of that lineage.” Mom sighed again, sat back, and pulled her hands away from Mira.

“Anyway,” she said. “Tara the Younger was the youngest. She had red hair and green eyes, just like her mother. Just like our Tara. She married Dunore Meric and they had three children before she…” Mom seemed to catch herself. She shook her head. “The oldest of her children married an Ashsmith, and so forth. Eventually, I was born, and had you and Tara.” She gave Mira a wan smile. Her energy from early in the conversation seemed drained. Expended.

Mira thought. What to ask? Tara the Younger had what? Died? Been a powerful necromancer? Why had Mom held back?

“You said the Order of the Fire Queen were necromancers,” Mira said. “Do you know if they studied…”

“Your father will be home soon.” Mom suddenly stood. “I think that’s enough history for now. Let’s get the table set.”

Father arrived home as they finished setting the table. Dinner was uneventful between them. Father droned on about the sale of some furniture he’d had for years. Mira gave up hope of getting any more out of Mom.

She thought she’d collapse into bed from exhaustion, but found herself writing in her journal all she’d learned late into the night. She then detailed it all again into a letter each for Katla and Tara.

The sun arrived too soon the next morning as she headed into Wayrest to send the letters. Finally, they had more leads to track down.

4E 203 – The Penitus Oculatus

Tara hiccupped and looked at the man.

“Wha’d you say?” She blinked. He was out of focus, and attempting to split into two.

“I think you’ve had enough to drink,” he said. The man was an Imperial, medium build, with black hair, longish, and swept back from his forehead to reveal a widow’s peak. He had a thin mustache, and a beard limited to a simple track between his lower lip and chin, with short stubble along the rest of his jawline.

If he were in Cyrodiil or High Rock, he’d look as cosmopolitan as the people. Here in Skyrim, it was the type of beard few men wore. Dressed in simple leathers, it was obvious the man had some muscle. He looked the warrior type.

Tara thought of Mira. The man had her look. Serious. This was a serious man with no sense of humor. Telling her to stop drinking.

Tara hiccupped again and watched him come back into focus.

“Where do you…” words were suddenly hard to form “…get off tellin’ me to stawp?” she finished.

Tara had been sitting and drinking in the Four Shields tavern all night. She’d arrived in Dragon Bridge late in the day, much later than she’d intended. The trip from Granite Hill had not been as smooth as she’d hoped. She’d left late. The hangover had lingered too much in the morning. Then, north of Rorikstead, a thunderstorm had cropped up and she’d had to find shelter under a cliff overhang. She’d still been drenched.

Walking in sopping wet clothes had been uncomfortable. She’d chaffed in a few unmentionable places, souring her mood.

That bridge, though.

Her mood had lifted when she approached the legendary landmark Dragon Bridge was named after. The Karth River ran wide and strong here, with a magnificent waterfall visible from the great stone bridge.

Any bridge crossing the river at this point, near the mouth, and sitting between Markarth and Solitude, two of the largest cities in Skyrim, would be impressive. The need for strength and enough width to handle the commerce between the holds of Haafingar and Hjaalmarch was essential.

Besides its size, the bridge stood out for the two great dragon heads carved into its top, at the pinnacle of the arch across the bridge. The bridge had been built sometime in the Merethic Era, in the time thousands of years ago, when the peoples of Tamriel were still evolving.

History books were divided on whether the dragon skulls were stone sculptures or petrified skulls of ancient dragons. Standing under the arch and looking at them, Tara thought stone. The amount of time it’d taken to carve such works of art, though, was unimaginable.

The town of Dragon Bridge itself was small and quiet. Late afternoon sunlight coated Tara as she’d crossed the bridge, passed a sawmill, and stopped.

There it was.

The banners outside a small building marked it as the Penitus Oculatus outpost. The banners were a background of dark gray, on which sat a diamond outline, filled with a deep red. A peering eye, framed by three teeth that reminded Tara of serpent fangs pierced the eye.

Their armor had the same insignia on it. These were the special agents of the Emperor, or Empress. During the reign of the Septims, The Blades had been the personal guard of the sitting ruler. That had ended with the Oblivion Crisis, though. When Titus Mede I had become Emperor, the Penitus Oculatus had been formed, early in the Fourth Era.

The Blades had been steeped in mystery and history, arising from the Dragonguard, fabled dragon hunters from the previous time of dragons, so long ago.

The Penitus Oculatus had no such history. They were what they presented. A special force founded solely for protecting, and answering to, the ruler of the Empire. Tara knew they were spies, warriors, archers, and mages; whatever was needed to serve the interests of the Empire.

They were not to be trifled with. They were the epitome of serious.

Tara had stood in front of the building, still half-soaked by the rain, intending to walk in, ask for Commander Maro, hand him the letter from Legate Rikke, and join on the spot.

Nerves had hit her, though.

What was in Rikke’s letter? An outstanding recommendation, telling tales of her skills in battle? Or, a sob story begging Maro to take pity on her, a misfit from the Imperial Army, who’d fought with her fellow soldiers, and worse?

Watching the golden sunlight from a dimming afternoon hit the banners, giving that eye a sheen of foreboding, she’d froze. She never froze. All the fights, assassins killed to protect Katla, battles fought during the war. She didn’t freeze. That was instant death.

Standing in front of this building. Standing in front of her next purpose. Frozen. Why?


The day was late. She should wait until morning. That’d be the time to step in, hand the letter over. Yes. Tomorrow morning.

She’d rent a room, enjoy a meal, have a drink or two, and shake off the long day of travel. Be fresh tomorrow morning. Yes.

She’d done just that, immediately renting a room and settling in. She’d finished drying off from the rain. Her mood had soured again. It didn’t sit right she’d frozen like that. She needed to make a good impression tomorrow.

The tavern had been crowded, with patrons coming in for meals and drinks after work. Tara found herself wanting to be alone, away from all the idle chatter. A few men had flirted, irritating her further. She should’ve taken her dinner in her room, but she had wanted a couple of drinks. To relax.

To forget.

Listening to the Imperial in the leathers tell her she’d had enough made her realize she had no idea how many drinks she’d had. The inn was nearly empty now. Quiet. What time was it?

The man studied her for a moment. Not leering, though.

“I suspect you can take care of yourself,” he nodded at her arms. Tara was still wearing her leather armor, meaning her arms were exposed, her muscles on display. “But I overheard an unsavory conversation outside, between a few men.” He glanced at Faida, the innkeeper, who’d doled out the drinks to Tara. Faida’s face paled.

“Seems they were in here earlier. Took notice of you. I don’t think you should keep drinking. Or, step outside. Hopefully, they won’t come back in.”

“She has a room here,” Faida said. “I’ll get her to it.”

Tara felt her face flush. “I’m not…” she hiccupped “…I’m not fimished.” Her lips were not cooperating.

The man fished some gold coins out of his pocket and tossed them on the bar. Faida scooped them up and pocketed the money, before Tara could count them.

“That enough to get her to her room now?” he asked Faida.

“I’m…” Tara started.

“Yes,” Faida said to the man. “Thank you for looking out for her. And the inn’s reputation.”

The man nodded stiffly. “Take care,” he said to Tara. He turned sharply and left without another word.

“Julienne. Help me,” Faida called out to the young bar maiden that had been serving most of the patrons all night.

Tara found herself standing unsteadily in her room before she could process anything. Her head wanted to spin. So did the room.

“Good night, dear,” she heard Faida say before closing the door.

Sunlight slammed her in the morning, waking her from a deep slumber.

Had she dreamed? No. No premonitions, no dreams.

No Rorikstead.

Tara squinted her eyes against the blasting sunlight streaming through her room’s high window and stumbled out of bed. Her head pounded. The room tried turning on her.

You need to stop drinking.

She dunked her head in the water basin, shocking herself with the cold, blissful water in it.

She spent the next thirty minutes hitting herself with a healing spell, letting her magicka recover, then hitting herself again until she felt steady. The headache receded. Her stomach stayed unsteady. Best to skip a morning meal.

She thought of that morning in Bruma. The hangover from drinking herself into a stupor the day before meeting with the priest about Freta.

What would Freta say to her now? What would Katla, if she saw her like this? Some protector she was turning out to be.

Commander Maro.

Right. She needed to go to the outpost. Give him the letter. Start her new purpose.

There wasn’t a cloud in the sky when she stepped outside. The air was crisp, the first real bite of winter hovered nearby. The cold air helped her steady herself.

The walk was short, the Penitus Oculatus outpost less than a hundred meters from the tavern.

Tara stepped up on the wide porch of the building. A blacksmith’s forge and anvil were to the left of the building. She could hear an agent working it. One agent sat outside the door into the building.

He stood as she stepped up.

“State your business.”

Tara found herself straightening up. Wanting to seem taller. More serious.

“I’m here to see Commander Maro. I have a letter to deliver. His eyes only.” Did she just sound like a courier?

The agent studied her for a moment, eyeing the axes on her hip.

“I’m a veteran from the Imperial Legion,” she added.

He didn’t seem impressed. “Go on in. Keep all weapons sheathed.”

The outpost was, in a word, small. Tara stepped inside to a single room. How were agents stationed here?

The place was nothing but business. Nothing but a place for quick orders and dispatching of agents. There were a few beds, arranged in typical barracks style, crowded together for rest, but no privacy. A table with four chairs sat in the center of the room, in front of a large fireplace. Opposite the barracks style beds was a single bed, chest, and desk, as if an area reserved for an officer. Or commander.

Two men were inside the outpost. One was a young agent, sitting at the table. He glanced at her while writing on some parchment.

Tara froze. She managed to keep her jaw from propping open.

The other man, sitting at the desk in the reserved area, was the man from last night. The Imperial in simple leathers.

He stood, revealing the full glory of his Penitus Oculatus armor. A commander’s armor.

Although she was now sober, Tara found her lips did not want to cooperate.

Tara saw his mouth twitch slightly at the sight of her. Was he smirking?

“Commander Maro?” she asked.

“Yes.” His face had resumed that serious look from last night. “What can I do for you?”

“I have a letter from Legate Rikke, second in command of the Imperial Legion here in Skyrim.”

She cleared her throat. “For your eyes only. Regarding me. Sir.”

Tara handed over the letter and watched Commander Maro read it. His face remained still, not betraying his thoughts.

Tara’s own thoughts whirled. He’d seen her drunk off her ass. What had she said last night? Had she done anything more than be stubborn? She didn’t think so, but as in Bruma, the details were fuzzy.

What must he think of her? Would the letter help his opinion? Or amplify it?

Maro folded the letter and stepped over to his desk. He shuffled through stacks of papers, finally pulling out a dossier.

“I was wondering when you’d show up,” he said. “Legate Rikke sent this a few weeks ago, before she left for Windhelm, I believe.”

He flipped quickly through the papers inside, as if refreshing his memory.

Tara felt color drain from her face. Were they the reports Rikke had from Rorikstead, the reports from Captain Havilguss, with the addendums from Calidia?

Maro put down the dossier and turned to her. He’d set the letter inside the dossier.

“Rikke and I have known each other a long time. She considered joining us, before choosing the Legion instead.”

In the moment, Tara realized Maro was a lot older than her first impression of him. The lines on his face were subtle, but noticeable once you gave his face a second glance. He was easily old enough to be her father. A young Rikke joining the Imperial Legion would mean they had known each other a decade or two.

“I trust Rikke’s judgement of people,” he said. “She’s never been wrong.”

“Sir?” Tara asked.

“You’re not the first soldier she’s sent to me.”

He gave Tara a long look.

“Am I to assume last night’s…display…comes from…” he tapped the dossier “…Rorikstead?” He voice sounded firm, yet soft.

Tara swallowed. “I went overboard last night. Lost count. That’s all.”

No it’s not.

Maro kept his eyes on her. So serious.

Tara dropped her gaze. “I need to forget sometimes.” It came out a whisper.

Maro nodded.

“We have an outpost along the border with High Rock, north of Markarth,” Maro said. “Not something most people know.”

Tara thought. North of Markarth would put it in the Druadach Mountains, with Evermore being the closest major High Rock kingdom. Tara had never been; Wayrest being far south of it.

“I’m sending all new agents there to train,” Maro said. “Pack your things. I’ll give you exact directions as soon as you’re ready.”

“Sir?” Tara blinked. That was it? She was in?

“There are trials to become a true agent of the Penitus Oculatus,” Maro said. “A sharp mind, an ability to follow orders, and deadly skills. All are required. You will have to prove yourself.”

Tara straightened up. She saluted Maro. “I’ll prove myself.”

Maro gave her the tiniest of nods. “Whatever haunts you, you’ll need to find a way to deal with it. No alcohol. Understand?”

Tara nodded. “Understood.”

Within the hour, Tara left Dragon Bridge and headed towards Markarth.  She admired the great bridge one more time. She’d spent less than a day in the town.

How soon before she’d be back?

(Check out two excellent Penitus Oculatus mods, Penitus Oculatus and Penitus Oculatus II)

2E 591 – Catalyst

Tara Geonette felt the change in the air as soon as she stepped inside the tower.

Nira Hawkcroft stood near the entrance to greet her. Tara had been gone a week. She had what she needed. The stone had not been easy to come by, but she had it. Even better if she could find more. A task for another day.

Nira looked nervous.

“What’s wrong?” Tara asked.

Nira bowed. “My queen. May we speak somewhere private?”

“Follow me,” Tara said. She led Nira up to her lab. She had a barrier on the door. Only she and Lysona had the ability to remove it and restore it. She waved her hands, sending the correct balance of fire and cold magic at it to dispel it.

She gestured Nira inside and closed the door behind them.

Her niece, Maline, no longer stayed in the lab. When she’d turned thirteen, Tara had given her a separate bedroom. Still on the same floor as the lab and Tara’s bedroom. She needed the girl nearby, of course, and still wanted her interactions with members of the order limited. She had a strict curfew for when she needed to be in her bedroom, and a guard was posted outside her room every night.

Keeping her locked in her lab had been problematic. As Tara understood now, the ritual would work better if Maline knew magic. Giving her a bedroom and sense of freedom had done wonders for her disposition, too. In the years since turning thirteen, the girl now seemed happy. Perhaps she’d finally finished grieving the death of her parents.

Tara had Maline learning alchemy from Lysona and novice magic from Andane. Tara had insisted Andane keep the training to restoration and some alteration magic. Safe enough schools of magic. She didn’t want Maline learning destruction or conjuration. She’d never need them. Like many Geonettes, she was naturally good with magic. Andane had been impressed, but nodded when Tara reminded him to keep everything novice level, no matter how quickly she advanced.

“What is it?” Tara asked Nira. She fought to keep annoyance out of her voice. She removed her traveling cloak, irritated she wasn’t in her bedroom, where she could take off her armor and slip into something more comfortable. Plus, the stone. She wanted to study it. She needed to be alone for that.

“I was too late,” Nira started. Her hands trembled. “I would have stopped it if possible.”

“Stopped what? Out with it,” Tara said. She let her impatience shine through. She didn’t have time for this spineless fear from a follower.

Nira swallowed. “Bedore was in Maline’s bedroom last night. We believe…” Nira cleared her throat. “We believe he…harmed her.”

Tara felt herself grow cold. “Harmed her? How?” Her voice was low, venomous.

Bedore wouldn’t have. He knew better.

Nira’s voice dropped to a whisper. “I found, in her room, afterwards, an empty bottle of wine. I put the bottle in your bedroom, in case you want to examine it. The glass is different. I haven’t seen the bottle before. I thought it might be something special.”

Why was she avoiding answering the question?

“HOW DID HE HARM HER?!” Tara roared.

Nira jumped. “I believe he was drunk and was…with her.” She was barely audible.

Tara stepped away from Nira and paced. He wouldn’t have. He knew better. She’d given him so many others to be with. He knew the rules.

She stopped, facing away from Nira so she couldn’t see any hint of weakness. Tara closed her eyes.

Her niece. Only sixteen. And if it was the bottle of wine she was thinking of? The one she had kept in the bedroom. What then? This changed much. The poor girl.

Tara turned back to Nira. “Where are my children?”

Nira brightened up. “Little Lysona is with Lysona. Madena is watching Tristand. They’ve been happy and good this week.”

“My niece?”

“In her room. I forbade anyone to see her. I brought her breakfast this morning. She won’t tell me anything, but…” Nira swallowed. “She has bruises.”

“You said ‘we believe’. Who knows about this?”

“Just myself and Ciel. He was on duty last night. He told me Bedore ordered him to take a break.”

Nira dropped her eyes. “Ciel came and got me. He’d come back from his break, realized Bedore was still in the bedroom. The door was locked. He heard disturbing sounds. I sent him away. Said I’d check into it.” Nira shifted her feet. “I made sure Bedore didn’t see me when he left her bedroom. I told Ciel not to tell anyone and act like nothing’s happened. Thought it best.”

Tara nodded slowly. “Good thinking. You did the right thing.”

Nira had done the right thing, Tara thought. She considered her options.

“Thank you for telling me.” She smiled at her. “You’ve shown me loyalty and wisdom in handling this.”

Tara opened the lab door. “I need you to stay silent. Tell no one else, including your husband, Peristair. Bedore cannot know that I know. Understand?”

Nira nodded. She seemed relieved.

“I’ll take care of this,” Tara said. She put her hand on Nira’s shoulder, to reassure her. It seemed the thing to do. She also focused her green eyes on her, with an intensity she hoped brokered a little fear. To reinforce the need for the secrecy.

“I will reward you for your loyalty to me. Now, go.”

Nira scurried away.

Tara looked around her lab. She needed to go see Maline.

She grabbed some healing potions, put the barrier back up on the door, and stepped into her bedroom. The empty wine bottle was as Nira had said. Special.

He’d drank the whole thing. Maline was lucky, if bruises were the only injuries she had. This had not been the test of the potion she had in mind. She’d added it to the wine, intending to give Bedore a glass or two over a few dinners to see how he reacted.

Now, she needed details. She needed to know how violent he’d been. She could adjust the potion from there.

Tara changed out of her armor and into a soft, black robe, with the order’s emblem high on the right shoulder. Her red hair stood out with the robe, with the emblem color pulling everything together. She thought herself commanding, yet approachable.

Edgard Ashcroft was guarding Maline’s bedroom.

“My queen.” He nodded.

“Leave us,” Tara said. “I’ll summon you when I’m finished.”

“Yes, ma’am.”

Tara waited for Edgard to disappear down the stairs.

She steeled herself and stepped into Maline’s room.

Maline sat by the single window, which was on the left side of her room. Late afternoon light pooled across her, giving her raven hair hints of blue, and adding warmth to her pale face.

As she’d grown, her face had taken on a long look, with delicate features. She always looked fragile. Today, more so.

The bruise on her left cheek stood out. Deep purple, it started near the corner of her mouth and extended up, stopping at the edge of her eyes.

She wore a simple dress, with short sleeves. Tara could see deep bruising on her arms. She sat cross legged in the chair, her legs tucked under the dress, out of sight. Tara imagined deep bruises were hidden there.

Maline’s hazel eyes greeted Tara’s with an emptiness she wasn’t expecting. She’d raised thralls with more life, she thought.

“I brought you some healing potions,” Tara said. She kept her voice soft. “They’ll heal the bruises.”

Maline looked back out the window.

“Come on,” Tara said. She walked closer to her and stopped. She knelt, so that she now looked up at Maline. A position of weakness. A position one might assume to calm an injured animal.

“They’ll help you feel better.” She held them out.

Maline gave her the empty eyes again, but took the two healing potions. She looked at them for a moment, as if considering if they were really healing potions, then drank them both.

She doesn’t trust me, Tara thought. Why would she? The experiments. And now, her boyfriend had…well.

Tara watched the bruises fade as the potions took effect.

“You promised,” Maline said. Her voice was raw, as if she’d been screaming too much and worn it out.

Tara thought for a moment. Promised? Ah, yes. She had.

“I know.” She looked down at the ground, as if ashamed. “I didn’t think it would take this long. I thought I could be rid of him by now.”

Maline’s eyes watered and Tara watched her lower lip tremble. “He…killed them. You promised he’d pay.”

“He will. I need…”

“And you…you sleep with him. You had his children!” She shrieked. Her voice tore.

Maline stood suddenly. Tara stood and stepped back to give her room.

She watched Maline pace back and forth. Her fists clenched and unclenched. The girl stopped in front of her bookcase. Tara had made sure to give her plenty to read. Histories of the Dwemer, her favorite subject, plus the history of High Rock, guides to other cities, anything she could that wasn’t teaching advanced magic.

Maline stared at the books. Tara watched her shoulders shake. The girl was trying to contain her rage.

Tara shifted herself in preparation. She wanted to feel balanced.

Maline threw the books at her with surprising force and accuracy.

Tara used a telekinesis spell to keep the books from hitting her, waving her hands subtly. She let the books come close, before diverting them to the ground around her.

Maline ran out of books and threw one more object. Instead of diverting it to the ground, Tara used telekinesis to pull the object into her hand. The old Dwemer cube. The one she’d given Maline four years ago, as part of the final test.

Tara looked at the cube for a moment and thought. She needed to handle Maline carefully.

She held out the cube to her. “I’m glad you still have it,” she said. “Amazing how they don’t seem to age, isn’t it?”

Maline stared at her. She seemed unsteady on her feet, and unsure of what to do next.

Tara sighed and lowered her arm. “Sit. Let’s talk.” She pointed at the long couch across the room, by the fireplace. It was furthest from the bed, too. The poor girl. Stuck in the same room where it’d happened. She needed a new bed. She couldn’t be expected to sleep in the same bed it’d happened in. Tara would have the bed replaced as soon as she left.

Maline sat on the couch without a word. Tara held out the cube again. Maline took it and slowly turned it over in her hands. She kept her eyes focused on the cube, refusing to look at her aunt.

Tara sat next to her, close, but with some space. Best not to crowd her.

“This will help you feel better,” she said. Without waiting for a response, Tara waved her right hand and performed a calm spell. It seemed the kindest thing she could do; remove Maline’s anger. Suppress all her emotions. Perhaps it could give her a sense of peace and relax her enough so she could sleep later.

Mostly, it’d settle her down enough for Tara to get answers.

“I’m sorry. I truly am,” she said. She kept her voice soothing, matching it to what she used with Lysona and Tristand when they needed it.

Maline kept turning the cube over in her hand.

“I haven’t explained my plans to you,” Tara continued. “I need one more thing from Bedore. Then, I can keep my promise. He will die.”

Maline stopped turning the cube and looked at her. Her eyes were sad, but also tired. The calming had worked.

“He said things. He said…” she paused. “He said you ordered him to kill Mom and Dad.” Her voice was low. Still raw. A warning was in the tone.

Tara thought back to the last time they’d sat together, with the cube in Maline’s hands. The promise. Maline’s tone then, the look in her eyes. A look that matched many Tara had given. Given time, Tara suspected Maline could become a great conjurer. Someone who enthusiastically studied the dark arts. Some interests ran in the family.

Tara put her arm around Maline and pulled her close. Maline rested her head on Tara’s shoulder. The spell had been strong enough. She should have been resisting Tara’s comfort. Good. Now, to word things right.

“He was supposed to bring you to me. Your mom and dad wanted me to teach you magic,” she lied. “He was just supposed to pick you up and bring you here. Your dad was my big brother. I’d never want anyone to hurt our family. Our blood.”

Maline seemed in thought. Tara ran her fingers lightly through the girl’s hair, soothing her like she did little Lysona, when she had bad dreams.

“Then why haven’t you killed him already? Why do you let him be so…close to you?”

Tara sighed, as if she was acknowledging a great burden.

“You know how I said our family was special. You and I are special?”


“Bedore’s blood is special, too. I need it. That’s why I’ve had his children.”

Maline shivered. “But…”

“Also, some say a person should keep their enemies close. Better to track them. And take them by surprise.”

Maline went quiet, thinking. They sat silently for several minutes. Tara kept stroking her hair. She performed another calm spell on her. She needed the girl a little more pliable.

“I need you to tell me exactly what happened,” she said, keeping her voice gentle. “I know it’s painful, but I have to know everything. It’ll help me.”

Maline shivered. “I…I don’t want to remember…”

“I know,” Tara soothed. “The details will help me keep my promise to you.”

Maline stiffened. “Really?”

“Yes. I’m working on a special potion, just for Bedore.”

Tara cupped her hand under Maline’s chin, gently lifting her head, so they looked at each other. She gave her a smile.

“After you tell me everything, I’ll have Lysona give you something to help you sleep. You won’t have any nightmares.”

Tara nodded towards Maline’s bed. “I’ll have that burned and a new bed brought to you, too. You never have to see that again.”

Maline’s eyes betrayed how tired the calming spell made her. Some fear flickered, but the spell was winning. She placed her head back on Tara’s shoulder.

“Okay. Just this once,” she said.

Tara listened and formulated her plans.

4E 203 – Two For Me, One For You


Tara finished off her fourth mead. She needed to stop. She needed to get on the road.

You need to stop drinking so much.

She turned toward the voice, Laila’s, and immediately found herself pulled into a hug. Laila had wrapped her arms around her and pulled her close. With their height difference, Laila was a Nord, Tara found her face intimately close to the woman’s chest. She smelled of spring flowers and a warm hearth fire.

Laila typically wore low cut dresses, what Tara had heard others call a wench’s dress. The phrase bothered her. The dress was low cut, with a high cut on the legs as well. Far more revealing than typical innkeeper and bar maiden attire, for sure, but Tara had never understood why people felt the need to point it out on women. No one harassed men for what they wore. Or didn’t. A few too many men walked around bare chested. No one batted an eye.

Tara pulled herself out of the hug. She put her hand on the stool she’d just been sitting on. She was feeling the mead and wanted to stay steady on her feet.

“You okay?” Tara asked her.

Laila looked her up and down, as if taking in the change of clothes. Tara wasn’t in Imperial armor any more. She wore her new leather armor. She’d commissioned Evi L’Pandis, a local leather smith, to create the outfit. A blend of fabric and thick leather, it covered her completely, except her arms. She knew she should wear the pauldron he’d made, but she liked her arms free, for the range of motion, and, perhaps vainly, for the way it showed off her muscles. He’d also created a pair of thick leather gauntlets, and sturdy boots. All was a mix of dark browns and blacks, with a golden thread around her sleeve edges.

The armor was perfect. It fit her better than she expected, both in the physical sense and in taste. Tara had never cared for feminine clothes, but overtly male designed outfits didn’t feel right, either. She liked something that could show her curves, with a touch of softness that also felt strong and practical. The mild sheen to some of the fabric for the armor gave it a feminine touch, while being mindful this was clothing meant to protect. The dark browns and black set off her hair and eyes. She looked good in an armor she could also function in. Money well spent.

The Imperials had won the war. News arrived that Windhelm had fallen. Ulfric was dead. Tara wondered if he was in Svongarde. Maybe Freta would see him.

The news couldn’t have come sooner.

As soon as Legate Rikke and the rest of the Imperial garrisons had left Fort Sungard, Captain Torell had pulled Tara off patrol duty and put her to scrubbing out the temporary stables of the horses and taking up his and all lieutenants’ chamber pots. He’d assigned her the lowest chores he could find. Punishment for embarrassing him in front of Rikke. For actions that had shown his incompetence.

Tara had avoided the inn since the fight. She’d not wanted to deal with the looks. Most in her garrison now gave her a wide berth. The wave that had broken Norring frightened them.

Magic made people nervous, especially when it surprised them. It was one thing to see the obvious battle mages, who carried themselves with restraint. The wave had amplified everyone’s opinion of Tara. She was an unpredictable fury. A sudden thunderstorm, appearing without warning.

Pilfer had been an exception. He’d made a point to check in on her a few times. To commiserate, Tara thought. To acknowledge more should’ve been done to stop Norring. He’d confessed to Tara he’d seen the same behavior from him in other towns. That more than one bar maiden had been assaulted during the garrison’s travels before Tara had joined.

“Laila’s lucky you defended her,” he’d said. “I’ve heard he’s brutal if they don’t cooperate.”

Tara had nearly tossed her drink in his face at that. They’d been sitting outside her tent. He’d brought her a couple of meads, since she was avoiding the inn.

“You all should’ve put a stop to it,” she’d snapped at him. She’d stood. “How could any of you let that happen?!”

He’d stood as well, knowing she was dismissing him. “It’s war. Men need to…I don’t know…they get urges…” he’d started.

“Do you hear yourself? Fuck off!” Tara had said. They’d not spoken since.

“I’m okay,” Laila said. “You’re not in uniform.”

Tara smiled. “I’m retired from the Legion. On orders.”

That had been a happy moment. She’d saved giving Torell the letter from Rikke for first thing in the morning, when she was expected to be emptying overflowing pots. She’d not said a word to him. She’d ignored his orders to empty the pots, handed him the letter, and savored his face, which was a mix of surprise and anger, as he read the letter. She’d then dropped her uniform on his desk, turned, and walked out.

The garrison was packing up to leave, from what she could see. She’d overheard a few soldiers talk about staying as part of standard patrols in the area, but it sounded like most were headed to Solitude for rest and redeployment. The war might be over, but Tara imagined fighting with the scattered Stormcloaks would continue for a time.

None of that concerned her. Next was getting to Dragonbridge and finding Commander Maro. Whatever the Penitus Oculatus was up to was now her business, not the Legion. They were a wholly separate army. Their focus was protecting whomever sat on the Ruby Throne and their family. Somehow, this would lead to Rigmor.

Maybe before meeting with Commander Maro, she could find out which house Katla had grown up in. See if there were any clues or evidence of cultists around. Dragonbridge was Katla’s home town. The cultists had to have come through there looking for her.

“Retired? Wow,” Laila said. She dropped her voice low. She somehow sounded more sultry than usual. “What are you going to do?” She took a small step closer to Tara. Intimate, as if they were a couple having the most private of conversations. Tara caught her breath. How long since she’d been this close to a woman? It’d been nine months since she’d last seen Katla.

Tara cleared her throat. “I’m headed to Dragonbridge.” She almost added she was going to join the Penitus Oculatus, but held her tongue.

Laila reached out and grabbed the bottom of Tara’s tassets, running her fingers over the leather.

“When are you leaving?” she asked.

Tara felt herself swallow. She pulled her eyes away from Laila’s body and looked into her blue eyes.

“In the morning,” she answered. She had intended to leave this afternoon, but she’d sat at the bar too long, had too many meads. Best not to get on the road while drunk.

“Staying at the inn tonight?” Laila asked. She kept her fingers on the tassets, still slowly rubbing her fingers along the edges. So close to Tara’s hips.

Tara felt the seat of the stool press into the back of her legs. She had no way to step away from Laila, to give them more space.

“I have a room, yes,” Tara said. She realized she was whispering. She cleared her throat. “I’m glad you’re okay,” she added, louder.

“Thanks to you.” Laila smiled. “You know, I never got a chance to thank you.”

“No need,” Tara said. She sat back on the stool, but Laila was still close. Pressing.

“But I want to,” Laila said. “No one’s ever done something like that for me before.”

Tara thought. Had she defended Laila for Laila’s sake? Or her own? To make up for Rorikstead?

An image of Frostfruit Inn swam to the surface. A memory. The inn’s sign, swaying gently in the wind. The noise in the room that night.

Tara shook her head. She stood. She grabbed Laila’s hand.

“Come with me,” she said, pulling Laila with her.

They went outside. Tara brought Laila to the guard tower, which stood up a flight of stone stairs at the edge of town. Targets for practice were setup there.

“I want to show you something,” Tara said. She pulled off her hip the one item left of the Imperial army she hadn’t turned in. The steel war axe she’d been given when she’d joined.

“I’m going to teach you how to use this. To defend yourself.” Tara held it out for Laila to take.

Laila’s eyes widened as she took it. She gripped it wrong, holding it as if to chop wood, not fight.

Over the next two hours Tara worked with her, teaching her basic footwork, a variety of grips, and had Laila hitting the straw targets with good force. She showed a natural athleticism. Being a bar maiden, she’d spent years balancing drinks and plates of food while moving nimbly in a crowd. Like any Nord Tara had met, she had size and strength, too. Maybe that was why Tara found Nord women so intoxicating. They were so physical. Naturally.

“Good job,” Tara said as they finished up. The afternoon was turning to evening. Long shadows stretched and covered the practice targets.

The mead had worn off. Nothing like time and exercise to burn off alcohol. A headache was forming in its place, though. She needed to eat something to keep it at bay. Maybe do some healing on herself.

“Now, I just need my own axe,” Laila said. She had a huge grin on her face. She’d relished the training and looked it. Her dress was darkened with sweat. She was still recovering from the last set of exercises, her chest moving in time with her heavy breathing. Tara averted her eyes.

“You have one,” she said. “Keep it.” She nodded at the axe.

“Oh, no, it’s yours!”

Tara patted her left axe, sitting on her hip. “I have my own set already.”

Laila ran her hand along the handle of her new axe. She smiled again and looked over at Tara. Her eyes held a mix of gratitude and…Tara couldn’t put her finger on it.

“Come on,” she said. “I need to eat.”

They ate together in the inn. Laila was off for the day, so they found a quiet corner away from the crowd.

Tara took her time with the grilled chicken and vegetable stew she’d ordered. She realized she was going to miss meals from Sheepshead Inn. Before the fight, before avoiding the inn, she’d been enjoying the food here. It was a cut above most tavern food.

She’d ordered a blackberry tea. No more mead for tonight. She needed her willpower.

“I don’t know how to thank you for everything,” Laila said. She’d ordered salmon steak with sautéed potatoes. She’d also downed two ales in the time it was taking Tara to nurse her tea. Nords and their ability to drink.

“You don’t owe me anything,” Tara said. “Anyone gives you trouble, now you can threaten them with that axe.”

Laila laughed. Throaty and melodic. Tara felt her heart pick up its pace.

“Still,” Laila said. “No one’s been so…kind to me in such a long time.”

She leaned across the table, reached out and caressed Tara’s hand, which had been resting on the table.

“I…I’ve never been with a woman.” Her voice was low and flirtatious, with a tinge of curiosity. “Would you honor me by being my first?”

Tara stared into her eyes. Other body parts had perked up, trying to match her heart rate.

It’d be so easy. One night. She’d never need to tell anyone. She’d never even need to come back to Granite Hill, unless sent on assignment by the Penitus Oculatus.

She knew the answer, though. Now that she’d sobered up. There was only one woman she wanted to share a bed with right now.

Tara took her other hand, placed it on Laila’s, and gently removed it from her resting one.

She smiled slowly. “I have a love.”

“Oh,” Laila said. She sat back. Her face turned pink in embarrassment. “I didn’t realize. Of course you do. Look at you.”

“Thank you,” Tara said.

They finished eating together, laughing easily now that the tension was broken. Tara drank a second tea. Food and tea seemed to have staved off the headache.

Finally, Tara stood. She held out her hand to Laila, who giggled and put hers in it. Tara kissed her knuckles lightly.

“Thank you for a lovely evening, Laila.” She bowed slightly. “Use your axe wisely.” She winked.

The next morning, Tara left before dawn. Heading to Dragonbridge. Heading to her next purpose.

(Next time you’re in Granite Hill, look for Tara’s steel war axe. Tara’s armor by Evil Panda, Nexus profile here.

4E 203 – Longing Urgency

Katla folded Tara’s letter and wiped her eyes.

Oh, Tara, she thought. If only she could hold her right now.

Tara had written about the fight with Norring, the new orders from Legate Rikke, and, finally, about what else had happened in Rorikstead. Not the wave she’d used to stop those twenty-five Stormcloaks soldiers. She’d written about them months ago. This was something else. It’d happened before the Stormcloak attack. The real reason she’d been transferred to a new garrison.

The real reason Tara’s tone and mood in her last few letters had seemed off. She’d not given details, one didn’t need to, but she’d told Katla the general facts of what her captain had done. Nothing else needed saying in a letter. Perhaps ever.

Katla thought of her mother. What had happened to her on that last, terrible night.

She closed her eyes again. Gods, she missed Tara. She needed to see her. For both their sakes. She’d thought this separation was smart, the right thing to do. To get away from assassins and to push Tara away from magic.

The idea seemed silly now. Tara had stepped away from magic without Katla’s leaving. And who better than Tara to protect her from assassins? What had she been thinking?

You were scared of her. Her temper.

Her capacity for violence. Though, Tara had never been that way with her. Not even a little. Their arguments were so…normal. A little yelling, mostly angry tones, with each other speaking their mind over an issue. Gods, they didn’t even resort to name calling.

How stupid to have left her. Look at what had happened to her since.

Maybe the Divines had planned it. Had put the idea in Katla’s head to leave. She wasn’t sure she believed it, but Tara did have premonitions going on. She’d written to Katla about the new, second one.

Besides the nightly ones of Rigmor, Tara had detailed another one. She’d thought it a nightmare at first, but it occurred every night, too, with little change in details. In the premonition, Tara was chasing Katla, or sometimes Freta, in a forest, until another woman stepped in at the last moment. Fire would engulf her, ending the dream.

Tara said the mystery woman kept promising to “bring her back”. Katla had suggested the dream must be related to the Fire Queen. Why else would fire be in the dream?

“Bring her back”? Who? Tara Geonette?

Or, Katla thought, maybe she needed to go back. This was the warning that she and Tara needed to be reunited.

“Everything okay?” Mira asked, startling her.

Katla almost dropped the letter. She put it away, tucking it back into her robes. She was still wearing mage robes and a hood, pretending to be Mira’s young assistant.

She and Mira were in the library again, in the reserved alcove, as they’d been for a few months now. Pouring over more books, taking notes on cult members. It’d been slow and laborious.

“Yes,” Katla said. “A letter from…you know who.” Even here, they were avoiding using Tara’s name, just in case there were listening ears. “I didn’t get a chance to read it this morning before you arrived to get me,” she finished.

Mira studied her with her piercing pale blue eyes. “Is she okay?” Her tone indicated she could tell Tara wasn’t.

“She’ll be retiring from the Legion soon,” Katla said. “Joining the Penitus Oculatus. I assume she’ll write to you with details.”

The Penitus Oculatus! Katla hadn’t even considered what that meant.

Katla decided against giving Mira any of the details from Tara’s letter. Katla was grateful Tara was writing Mira, that all three were staying in touch. She didn’t know what Tara was telling Mira in the letters between them, but something told Katla Tara was staying focused on the cult with her, and not much else.

What had happened in Rorikstead, even the fight with Norring, all seemed to be things Tara didn’t want Mira to know. How long before the two rebuilt their relationship? Would they ever? Could you ever trust someone who’d violated you so deeply?

Katla did like Mira. She’d been surprised by how much she liked her. The two sisters were so different. She’d wanted to distrust her, considering what Tara had told her. Spending this time with Mira, though, she couldn’t help but gain respect for her. People were drawn to her, and Katla found herself one of them.

She had a combination of confidence, knowledge, and directness that worked. At times she was condescending, yes, though that had been useful at keeping people away from them while researching. Her sense of humor was lacking, too. The woman couldn’t catch a joke if it landed in her lap.

She was studious and quiet, as if lost in thought examining the deeper meanings of life. Yet, when she wanted attention, to command a room, she could turn on a confident charm that infected you.

What Katla really admired was her concern for Tara. It felt genuine. Even now, in asking if Tara was okay, Katla had seen that look in her eyes. Probing from worry. Perhaps guilt she’d never drop over what she’d done to Tara. There was something to be said for a woman who kept trying to help those she’d hurt the most.

“Okay,” Mira answered. She didn’t push for more. “As long as she’s okay.” Mira handed over a piece of parchment.

“The names you’ve been gathering. I’ve marked on here the ones I know are noble families.”

Katla looked at the parchment. She whistled softly. “That’s a lot of them.”

“I thought so, too,” Mira nodded. “Even by Breton standards.” Mira cleared her throat. “I’m meeting this week with a few nobles. I’m going to take a closer look around their homes, if I can. See if that symbol is anywhere. Maybe ask gentle questions about their ancestors. There’s a chance their family name isn’t related to the ones we’re finding from the Second Era cultists, but I doubt it.”

“You think they married into these families on purpose?” Katla asked.

“Perhaps. They could’ve gained nobility after being cultists. That’s what I want you to find out today,” Mira said. She stood and walked over to the bookcase behind Katla. Her robes were splendid again. Today’s robes were a deep purple that seemed to highlight her pale skin. The robes flowed around her, as if alive and protective of her.

She pulled down an old book, the last on the shelf Katla hadn’t read yet.

“I think this one will help.” Mira handed it over. Noble Origins, the title stated. “This book traces families from the late First Era through about the year 250 of the Third. Please go through it and see if you can find when these families became nobility. If it’s noted, write down who the first noble person was.”

Katla took the book, glad she’d already put on the tundra cotton gloves she’d been given to handle the delicate books.

They worked in silence for a time, Katla slowly turning pages and updating Mira’s parchment. Mira focused on another parchment, the one they’d started with any information they could find about red soul gems. It was mostly blank, as they’d not found much. Mira was now reading a book about natural stones and rocks in High Rock. They weren’t even sure yet if any geodes were naturally red, Mira telling her she’d only ever seen bluish geodes in all her years.

“Master Blaton.” A male voice broke their silence.

Katla looked up to see Master Hawkcroft, the same mage that had interrupted them on the first day of their research here. He’d come by at least once a week, to ask Mira this or that. Mira always pulled him outside the alcove, so Katla rarely heard what they were discussing.

His eyes rested on Katla. She pulled her hood lower over her head, to hide her face in shadow more. A thought occurred. She looked down at her parchment.

“Master Hawkcroft,” Mira said, standing. “Twice in as many days.” Her tone offered mild annoyance. “How may I help you today?” Mira held her arms, such as to steer Master Hawkcroft outside the alcove, just as she had yesterday.

He didn’t move. Katla stole glances and watched as he looked from Mira to her. As if he wanted to stare at her, but Mira was in his way.

“A…few questions, um, if you’re seeing Lady Moorhart this week?” he said.

“I do have a meeting with her this week.” Mira indicated again that Master Hawkcroft should step out of the alcove with her, gently motioning her arms. He still didn’t move.

Katla searched the parchment of names. She went pale.

“What are your questions?” Mira asked. She let her full annoyance shine through now.

“I wonder if you might ask her…to reach out to me,” Master Hawkcroft said. Katla risked a glance up at him. He was staring at her, seemingly distracted in his conversation with Mira.

Mira sensed it, and stepped left, closer to him, blocking his view of Katla. Katla looked back down at the parchment, to check herself. She felt chilled.

“…regarding her son’s interest in joining the Synod,” he finished. “I’ve not yet heard back regarding a message I sent last week.”

Katla heard Mira sigh. “As I’ve told you before, I can’t be tasked with Synod business, as I’m not a member.”

“I’m, uh, I know, but…” Master Hawkcroft stammered. “But I haven’t heard back, and it seemed important to him in his letter. I just thought you could mention, ah, meeting me and it, uh, coming up in conversation.”

Katla finished checking her work. Her hands trembled. Stop it, she thought. Get a grip on yourself.

“Fine,” Mira said. She’d assumed her condescending voice. “I’ll ask if I get a chance. Was there anything else?”

“No, ah, thank you so much,” Master Hawkcroft said. Katla heard him walk away, his boots clicking and fading on the stone floor of the library.

Mira turned back to Katla. “Why does he keep asking me such mundane…what’s wrong?”

She sat in her chair and studied Katla.

Katla turned the parchment around and pointed to a name. Hawkcroft wasn’t marked as a noble name. It was on the list, though. They’d discovered two Hawkcroft’s as original order members.

“He’s figured out who you are,” Mira said. She stood and paced. “You have to leave Wayrest. High Rock.”

Katla blinked. “He’s a member of the order?”

“We have to assume any descendant from a name on that list is one,” Mira said. “Any other member of your family might be one. My parents might be.”

Katla thought. “Wouldn’t that put you in danger, too?”

Mira sat and thought. “I’m a direct Geonette descendant. I suspect that makes me special. And safe to some degree.”

Katla wrapped her arms around herself. The heart of the beast.

“But they’ve gone after Tara. Assassins…”

Mira leaned forward and lowered her voice. Her tone slipped to condescending. She was not brokering an argument. “Assassins were after you. For the soul gem. They weren’t order members. Just hired hands.”

Katla stood. “Right. I’ll leave first thing in the morn…”

“No. Now.” Mira stood. “Let’s pack up books and notes I want you to take with you.”

Faster than Katla expected they’d packed up the alcove and Mira escorted her out of the library.

Back at the inn, Mira helped her pack up her room. “I’ll escort you until we have you on a boat. I know someone to take you. I trust him completely. I suggest Hammerfell. Then, I don’t know which is safer for you, Skyrim or Cyrodiil.”

With Tara.

“I’ll take it from there,” Katla said. “I’m used to being on the run, remember?”

Mira nodded. “You’re right.”

She looked at Katla’s wardrobe. “I think it’s time you wear your new armor. Forget the robes.”

“I…good thinking,” Katla said. She pulled out the new armor and started changing.

Mira had arranged for a new, light armor for Katla. It’d taken her by surprise.

On one of her early visits to the inn to pick her up, Mira had studied her current armor, a leather set Katla really liked, but was, perhaps, showing its age. She also had to admit it didn’t offer much protection, exposing her arms and shoulders completely.

“You need some metal, at least over your chest and shoulders,” Mira had said. “Light armor still, to keep your movement and speed as an archer, but something that can deflect an arrow or two.”

“How do you know anything about armor?” Katla had asked. “Mage robes aren’t exactly protective.”

Mira had laughed. “I’ve met quite a few battle mages in my day. A blacksmith or two, in my time caring for ill citizens during my travels.”

“Doesn’t matter. I don’t have the gold for new armor,” Katla had said.

“Leave it to me,” Mira had said. “I’m not wealthy, but plenty comfortable. I can’t have Tara’s favorite person taking an arrow to the knee or heart.”

Mira had brought a blacksmith to meet Katla, and take measurements. Designs had been drawn up and a month later, Katla had her armor. Outside of trying it on, she hadn’t worn it.

She finished putting it on and took a moment to admire herself in it.

The breastplate and pauldrons were steel, oiled and treated to give it a slightly brown tone, making it easier to blend into foliage. Leather straps fed through the pauldrons to keep the breastplate aligned and comfortable. The plate had been bowed out slightly, to give her chest room and keep the proper angle for the deflection of arrows. An intricate design was attached to the plate, with the stop-rib, to again deflect blows and arrows. All while looking stylish. Underneath, and covering the rest of her upper body and arms was layers of thin silk, thick fabric, leather, and some chainmail. Colored a gray blue, it brought out her hair and eyes. Her pants were a thick leather, which matched her boots and the leather gloves.

She had movement, more protection, and looked good without being garish. She loved it.

“Thank you again,” Katla said to Mira.

“Let’s get you out of here,” Mira said.

As they walked to the docks, Mira rattled off instructions; what she wanted Katla to research, how often they should write. “Make a copy of all your notes and send them to me. I’ll do the same for you. We have to keep up the research.”

Reaching the docks, Mira guided her to the far end, to a set of short docks with a few small boats. This area was far quieter, less busy than the core section, with its towering ships and constant traffic of people loading or unloading cargo.

The boats they approached were simple, mostly rowboats and single sail boats.

“Wait here.” Mira stopped Katla near some barrels and crates stacked against an old wooden storehouse near the edge. Katla watched Mira approach an older, grey bearded man, working near one of the sailboats.

They greeted each other warmly, with the man constantly bowing at Mira, as if he couldn’t thank her enough for something.

Mira motioned Katla over.

“My friend, Ella,” Mira introduced Katla. “Ella, this is Agrore. He’s on his way to Sentinel, which is perfect for you, I think?”

Katla smiled at Agrore. “That would be wonderful.”

Agrore smiled and shook Katla’s hand. “Any friend of Mira is one of mine. Did she tell you how she saved both my daughter and son’s lives when they contracted dampworm?”

Katla smiled. “She did not.”

Agrore raised his index finger in the air. “I shall regale you with that story and the other great magic I have seen her perform on the trip.”

Katla turned to Mira, “I guess this is goodbye.”

Mira nodded. “I hope it’s not for too long.” She put her hand on Katla’s shoulder. “Stay safe. When I finish my work here, we’ll meet up again.”

Agrore was ready to leave within the half hour. Katla waited in the boat, and Mira stood on the dock until they pulled away. As Agrore turned the boat away from shore, pointing it towards Hammerfell, Katla raised her hand in a farewell. Mira returned it, then turned away from them and walked away.

Katla turned her eyes to the coast of Hammerfell. She’d never been, but remembered Tara telling her how much she loved Rihad. Katla realized she’d have to study a map and figure out the best way back to Skyrim.

Back to Tara.

(Katla’s armor is the Snow White Armor by Ultracriket. SSE conversion. Also, check this retexture.)

4E 203 – New Orders

Tara stood still and studied Legate Rikke as she read some fresh notes a soldier had brought her.

Captain Torell stood on the right side of the war table, Tara in front, and Rikke behind it. They were in her commander’s tent, parked just outside Fort Sungard. Torell was standing at attention. Tara had followed his lead and done the same.

She spared a glance at the war table. Little wood and leather flags, red and blue, were pinned across it. The blue flags had the Stormcloak bear emblem on them, while the red ones had the Imperial dragon sigil. Nearly all the table was red. Windhelm remained pinned by a blue flag, as did several places Tara took to be known Stormcloak camps. The war really was almost over, she realized.

Rikke finished reading the new notes, set them down on the table, next to larger pieces of parchment that comprised two stacks.

She was wearing her armor, without the helmet. Her dark blonde hair shone, as did the armor. She must have had a chance to bathe, to be fresh before her garrison and most others left tomorrow. Captain Alansen and his garrison were staying behind to man Fort Sungard, while Torell’s unit stayed in Granite Hill.

Tara gave herself a moment to study Rikke’s face. She thought of Freta. The two women didn’t look alike, outside of strong chins. The differences with Katla were even more pronounced. Katla had a much rounder, softer face than both. Plus, that luscious, deep brown hair.

Rikke had a commanding presence. It fit she was a legate; second in command in Skyrim. In that, Tara sensed a similarity to Freta. Rikke felt like how Freta had been. Dominating. The one in charge, without question.

Katla didn’t dominate. Tara led more often, but even that didn’t feel accurate. Tara led in the sense she was protecting Katla, and took charge to keep Katla safe. Otherwise, they were equal. Decisions were shared. More compromises made. Bedroom behaviors, too, had balanced out, once they’d spent more time learning each other’s tastes. Tara was Katla’s first girlfriend, while Katla was not Tara’s. Once the initial inexperience had worn off, Katla had become more assertive in the bedroom, to match the assertiveness she showed in all other aspects of their relationship.

Freta’s words floated up in Tara’s mind.

You were the love of my life, Tara. I was never going to be yours, though.

The truth struck Tara in the chest. Had Freta lived, they would not have lasted as a couple. Freta had understood this, and would have stayed with her as long as she could, because she loved Tara so much.

What would’ve broken them apart?


Freta would’ve been more resistant to magic than Katla. Tara felt that in her bones. Freta had never trusted magic and insisted Tara not pursue it. She would not have reacted well to her temper or waves. Something in them would’ve frightened Freta. Katla’s resistance had been specific to necromancers and conjuration magic. Understandable, considering everything.

Freta had also been dominating in their relationship. Too controlling. Their eight year age difference had been a factor. She had to be in charge, in control. She was thoughtful and tender, too, but Tara couldn’t picture being with anyone so controlling now. She wasn’t her eighteen year old self. So much had changed.

Freta had been with her as long as life had let them be. Only in this moment, did Tara understand how much Freta loved her, yet was aware of the differences that would’ve driven them apart. Freta probably knew Tara was hiding things from her. She’d simply been patient. Waiting. Enjoying what she could between them while it lasted. For that, Tara loved her a little more.

Katla. Gods, she missed her. Standing here in front of Rikke, waiting for the yelling that was sure to come. Waiting to be thrown out of the Legion. Maybe spend some time in the fort prison. She had, after all, just beaten up a fellow soldier. Injured him significantly, maybe permanently. There had to be a price to pay.

More than anything right now, Tara wanted Katla’s warm eyes, soft voice, and the empathy that she exuded. Katla saw right into Tara’s soul, and calmed it.


Here, too, was another moment of realization. Katla was moments of peace that otherwise eluded Tara. Inside her sat a pit of deep pain, with anger the boiling lava within the pit. Ready to explode without warning.

Except with Katla. Those eyes, her words, her gentle breath brushing Tara’s neck as she slept next to her. Katla was the calm Tara sought. The acceptance she sought. Katla was the love of her life. Tara couldn’t afford to lose her.

She had to find a way to see her. They couldn’t continue to be so far apart. Even if they weren’t together long while they searched for, and destroyed, the Order of the Fire Queen. They’d have to find a way to visit. No matter how brief. Tara would find a way. Standing in this tent, waiting for judgement, she felt alone. She missed Katla too much.

Rikke shuffled through a few of the larger notes on her table, read them briefly, and then straightened up. Standing tall. She ignored Tara and looked at Captain Torell.

“One of the duties of lieutenants and captains is to handle squabbles between soldiers in a garrison. So their legate doesn’t have to,” she said to Torell.

Rikke’s volume was the same as if they were discussing war tactics, deciding on troop movements. Her tone bit, though, cutting one’s skin.

“I recommended you to General Tullius for promotion when Jirich was lost, Torell,” she said.

Torell visibly paled. He kept his eyes facing forward, staring at the tent wall.

Rikke picked up one of the smaller notes. “Your job is to help your garrison work as a team, to be one unit, fierce in battle.” She paused. “If your two best fighters can’t get along, the unit is affected.”

She picked up a different note. “You were either blind to their troubles or ignored them. The rest of the garrison seems to know what was going on between Blaton and Black-Nail.”

Torell’s voice sounded raw when he spoke. “I’d told Black-Nail to leave her alone.” Torell glanced at Tara. “Didn’t realize he hadn’t stopped.”

Rikke kept her eyes on Torell. “We need every soldier in this war. Losing one to this…foolishness is inexcusable.” Rikke set the parchment down. Torell swallowed.

“Do better next time,” Rikke said.

Torell nodded. “Yes, ma’am.”

“I’m transferring Black-Nail to my unit,” Rikke said. “If he can walk well enough, he can have his glory in Windhelm, assuming he survives. Or he’ll sit it out in the healer’s tent. We’ll see how he likes having a woman as his commander.”

Torell nodded stiffly.

“I’ll have Lieutenant Vanin send one of my top swordsman to you to replace him.”

Torell nodded again. “Thank you, Legate.”

“Go meet with Captain Alansen. Coordinate your patrols of the fort and Granite Hill. He’ll need help with the fort, as I’m taking some of his men to Windhelm. Dismissed.”

Torell saluted Rikke, turned, gave Tara a baleful look, and left the tent.

Tara stayed at attention. Her throat felt dry. She didn’t dare swallow.

Rikke picked up one of the larger parchments and read it. After a moment, she looked from it to Tara. They studied each other.

“You were in Rorikstead, under Captain Havilguss?”

Tara felt color drain from her face. She nodded. “Yes, ma’am.”

“I heard about what happened. I didn’t realize you were the soldier.” Rikke’s voice was quiet, almost gentle. “I’m sorry that happened to you.”

Tara closed her eyes for a moment, to fight back the sudden tears. She blinked them back, opened her eyes, and held Rikke’s gaze. “Thank you, ma’am,” she said, her voice quiet. She nodded stiffly.

“You may be happy to hear Havilguss died in a skirmish near Ivarstead a couple months back,” Rikke said. She put down the parchment she’d been holding and picked up another. “Calidia is now captain and leads the garrison.”

Tara closed her eyes for a moment. How did she feel? Relieved?

“Calidia is a good man,” she said.

“He is,” Rikke said. “I’d wanted him as captain, not Havilguss. General Tullius ignored my advice.” Rikke looked at the parchment again.

“Did you know Calidia wrote addendums to every report Havilguss wrote about you?”

Tara felt her eyes widen. “No, ma’am.”

“Seems Calidia didn’t think much of Havilguss’ assessment of you.”

Rikke put down the second parchment and paced slowly behind the table.

“The incident in Rorikstead I’m curious about is the one where you single-handedly took on twenty-five Stormcloaks, preventing them from attacking the town.”

Tara felt color drain from her face again.

“Every single one of them injured, mostly broken bones. Easy pickings when the rest of your garrison got there.” Rikke leveled her eyes on Tara. “Three of your fellow soldiers were injured, though. By some force. The same force that injured the Stormcloaks. A force reports say came from you. The same force that threw Black-Nail into those posts and ended your fight with him.”

Tara stayed silent. How to explain it?

“Who healed your nose?” Rikke asked.

“What…oh,” Tara lightly touched her nose. She was still covered in dried blood. She could feel it caked on her face, her hands were stained red. Plus, the blood on her leather armor that would take hours to clean. She and Torell had come straight to Rikke’s tent after the fight. She’d not been given a chance to clean up.

“I healed it myself,” Tara said.

“Are you a mage, Blaton?”

“No, ma’am,” Tara said.

Rikke kept her eyes leveled at her. Tara matched her stare.

“You didn’t try to heal Black-Nail after you broke his bones. Nor the three soldiers in Rorikstead.”

“I can’t heal other people, ma’am,” she answered. “I know a little magic. Enough to heal myself from some injuries. Not all, though.” Tara pointed to her right arm. The scars from the bear attack stood out, running well past the short sleeves of her armor.

Rikke studied her arm and nodded.

“In Rorikstead, some soldiers claimed you must know a Thu’um. That you’d shouted at the Stormcloaks.”

“No, ma’am,” Tara said. “It’s not a shout.”

“But it’s magic of some sort.” Rikke’s eyes felt more intense. She demanded an answer.

Tara shifted her feet. “I don’t know how to explain it,” she said. “It’s magical, but not something I can control. Not really, anyway.” She sighed. “My sister, a mage, is researching it. It may be unique to me.”

Rikke nodded slowly. She seemed satisfied.

“Saving a town from attack is normally the kind of action that gets one promoted,” she said. “But you’re still a private.” Rikke shuffled through a few of the parchments. “Seems for every good deed you performed, which Calidia made a point to highlight in his addendums, you got into as many fights with fellow soldiers.”

Tara nodded. No reason to argue the truth.

Rikke paced. “What to do with you,” she said, almost under her breath.

Tara waited.

After a few minutes, Rikke stopped, pulled out two fresh pieces of parchment from a stack near the end of the table, dipped her quiver in her inkwell, and started writing. Tara watched her write something short on one, fold it, and seal it with hot wax that sat next to the inkwell.

Tara realized she must have been writing some correspondence before the fight had interrupted her.

Rikke wrote on the second parchment, for a longer time, then sealed it with wax, as well. She held out both to Tara, who took them.

The name on the outside of one read Captain Torell. The other was a name Tara didn’t recognize. Commander Maro.

“When your garrison receives news we’ve taken Windhelm and ended this infernal war, give Captain Torell his letter,” Rikke said. “It releases you, on my orders, from the Legion.”

“Ma’am?” Tara asked.

“Take the second letter to Dragonbridge,” Rikke continued. “Give that to Commander Maro only. He leads the Penitus Oculatus branch here in Skyrim. Which may be here awhile, if the news out of Cyrodiil is true.” Rikke’s voice trailed off on the last part, as if she’d been thinking out loud.

“I don’t understand,” Tara said.

“The Legion is not right for you,” Rikke said. Her voice had now restored itself to be commanding. She was giving orders. “I do think you have a lot to offer. Join the Penitus Oculatus. You can still serve the Empire. They’re better suited to your skills and temperament. The soldiers there are far more disciplined. I don’t foresee you having the…challenges you’ve faced in the Legion.”

Tara looked down at the two letters. This was not what she’d been expecting.

She looked back up at Rikke. “Thank you…”

“Get cleaned up. Get that blood out of your armor, soldier,” Rikke said. She paused, softened her voice. “Good luck. Dismissed.”

Tara saluted her and left the tent.

She held the letters close to her heart as she walked. She had new orders. A new purpose.

(Rikke’s look from Bijin NPC’s SE.)

4E 203 – Discipline

“Leave her alone,” Tara said.

She stood up from the table inside the Sheepshead Inn in Granite Hill, where she and some of the garrison were enjoying food and drinks after another day of patrols.

They’d been stationed here for a few weeks, since the Battle for Fort Sungard. Captain Torell’s garrison had been assigned to Granite Hill, a town located at a key crossroads where Whiterun Hold and Falkreath Hold met.

The town paid taxes to Falkreath, so had been considered a victory for the Imperials to hold. It had a long history of being a pivotal point for battles. Tara remembered reading about it from a book covering the First Era. If she remembered correctly, it’d been where the dragon Vuljotnaak was defeated during the Dragon War. Either way, it was an old Nord town that had seen much over its years.

Tara liked the feel of the place. It looked over the plains of Whitrun, but sat at the edge of the mountains and deep forest that dominated Falkreath. Tara still preferred the beauty of The Rift, but she could see herself settling here one day. It wouldn’t be a bad life. There was even a house available, though the note on the door from the mayor, John, said the owner was missing, as was the key to the home. Whoever found the key was welcome to it. Maybe when her Legion days were over, Tara thought, she could go look for it.

The town had several stores, a blacksmith, and open air market. Even a statue and shrine to Talos that the Thalmor had not destroyed.

Legate Rikke and the rest of the garrisons involved in the battle for the fort were camped around the fort, which sat up on the cliff above Granite Hill. Preparations were being made for them to leave. Word had spread like fire everyone was headed to Windhelm. This was the final push to eliminate the Stormcloaks and win the war. Tara’s garrison was staying behind, as there were still Stormcloak camps in the Reach and Falkreath. General Tullius was leaving garrisons scattered throughout Skyrim, to stop any Stormcloak reinforcements heading to Windhelm.

“Stay out of it, Breton,” Norring said back to Tara.

Norring had been harassing Laila, the inn’s server, since they’d been assigned here. Every night after patrols, most of them would come to the inn for drinks and a meal. Tara had enjoyed listening to the bard, Lova, sing. She had a soft, soothing voice and knew all the popular songs. The mead was good, too.

If only Norring would stop coming in here.

Laila was flirtatious. She had a sultry voice that enticed. Norring’s attention, though, she didn’t seem to want. Tara had watched over the past weeks as she first politely turned down his offers for company.

After her polite rejections failed, Laila had moved to the rude rejections, telling him to ‘bugger off’, ‘go enjoy your hand for the night’, and a few other choice phrases.

Her withering rejections should have stomped his ego enough to move on to easier prey, but Norring instead had become more aggressive. He’d been complaining there was nothing to do; all their patrols were quiet. He seemed bitter about the garrison not being chosen to go to the final battle.

Tonight, Laila had sat down for a quick break after checking all the tables and dishing out food and drinks. She’d chosen a chair in the back corner of the inn, away from everyone. A place to get a snippet of peace.

Norring had walked across the inn to get to her, as if he’d been watching her all night, waiting for her to be vulnerable. He stood with his back to Tara and most of the inn, blocking Laila from getting up from the chair. He’d leaned down, put his hands on both arms of the chair, whispering something to her. He was too close, too intimate.

Tara had watched Laila’s face first display disgust at him, as she’d said something back to him, clearly another rude rejection by the harsh moves of her jaws and lips. She’d almost seemed to spit at him.

He’d said something else and leaned in even closer. Color had drained from Laila’s face. She seemed to shrink.

Tara had to do something.

When Norring had first started harassing Laila, Pilper and a couple other men had said something to him. Nothing more than a ‘knock it off’, ‘leave her alone’, or ‘maybe you aren’t her type’. Their behavior made Tara as angry at them as much she was at Norring. No one was pushing the point, truly making him back off. The phrases were the weak efforts Tara had spent a lifetime observing between men. More so since she joined the Legion.

As if they were good guys for saying something, even if there was no power behind their words. None of them were standing up, calling his behavior what it was. Same as they had with his harassment of her. Same as any men when she’d been harassed in other inns, and on the streets of Wayrest as a teen. No one actually stood up. Tara broke noses because no one else would.

Tara didn’t want to be rescued by anyone, but letting blatant bullying and harassment go unchecked, with only halfhearted push back from one’s peers? That felt like cowardice. The men should be policing their behavior towards women. Not leaving it to those on the receiving end of the harassment. Most women couldn’t fight back.

“Leave her alone,” Tara said again. She straightened her stance, pushing her shoulders back, pushing out her chest, all in an effort to make herself as tall as possible.

Norring turned his head to her this time. He kept himself leaning over Laila, his hands still on the armrests. Laila was still coiled back from him, but she spared a glance at Tara. Tara wondered what he’d said to elicit that fear in her eyes.

“I told you to stay out of it, Breton,” he said, his voice a growling rumble.

“Get away from her before I make you,” Tara answered. Her voiced sounded loud. She realized the inn had gone quiet. She’d been sitting in the center of the inn, which meant her and Norring’s conversation was loud enough for everyone to hear.

Norring straightened up, but still stood in front of Laila. The height difference between Tara and him was obvious, even this far apart. Norring looked to be at least a foot taller than Tara. She briefly thought of Shum gro-Ulfish and their fight in Anvil, at The Count’s Arms Inn, those years ago. She wondered if he still walked with a limp.

“You’re going to make me?” Norring asked. He laughed at her. He finally stepped back from Laila. “You’re in for a world of hurt, Breton.”

Pilfer spoke up, “Leave them both alone, Norring.”

“Stay out of it,” Norring spate at him. “I was just flirting.”

Laila stayed coiled back in her chair, her eyes flitting between Tara and Norring.

“No, you weren’t,” Tara said. She felt heat rising in her face. Maybe Norring would back down, now that Pilfer had found an ounce of courage to say something. But what about tomorrow? He’d been harassing Laila for weeks. He wasn’t finished.

He’d not left Tara alone, either. After she shamed him at the fort over taking the dead Stormcloak’s gold, he’d gone back to the shoves and lewd comments. She was tired of him. Maybe she, too, was growing restless from easy patrols. Too much energy. Too much anger at the status quo here with men like Norring.

“Why are you all up in my business?” Norring said. He stepped towards Tara, and seemed to stretch himself up to his full height. “You finally want a taste of me?” He added a sneer to the last word, reached between his legs and grabbed himself.

Several men laughed.

“She only likes the ladies,” someone called out. Another man whistled.

Norring studied her for a second, cocking his head to the side slightly. His eyes read her head to toe, as if he was seeing her for the first time.

“Ah,” he spat. “A real milk drinker.” Someone behind Tara chuckled.

She knew Nords used milk drinker as an insult. Katla had explained it one night, back during their time in Riften, after an especially drunk Vulwulf Snow-Shod had called Talen-Jei one after he refused to serve him any more drinks.

“Means you’re weak, can’t handle your drink, so you have to have milk, like a baby,” Katla had said. “You know Nord men. If you’re not fighting and drinking, especially if you’re not a Nord, you must be a milk drinker.”

Tara thought of Katla, and what she loved about Nord culture. Why she loved being in Skyrim. They were upfront, not pretentious. They built their homes, and longhouses, in a way that felt closer to nature. They worked the land with respect and awe. Paid real tribute to the mountains, trees, and wildlife. You could almost feel Kyne here, the Divine true Nords considered the mother of men and beasts. Their politics were simpler, the games less. These people were closer to the earth, grounded. For all their faults, she loved what was good about them.

She realized she was itching for the one thing they did too much of. Fight.

“You’re the milk drinker,” Tara said to Norring. “An insult to that armor you wear. To the Legion. To true Nords.”

Tara watched his eyes flash. He perhaps thought of her insulting him before, at the fort. Calling him out for his dishonorable behavior.

“You better watch your mouth, Breton,” he growled.

Tara held her arms out, as if welcoming him. “Why? I thought a true Nord never backs down.” She grinned at him.

He flushed red.

“Take it outside,” Helana, the innkeeper, said from the bar.

Tara raised an eyebrow at Norring. “How about it, milk drinker? Want me to show you how to treat a woman?”

“After you,” Norring said, pointing at the door. “I’m going to beat your ass.”

Violence isn’t the way.

Tara didn’t care. She wasn’t going to have another Rorikstead here.

Norring came up right behind Tara as she stepped through the door of the inn. She felt his hot breath on her neck as he whispered at her, making sure no one else could hear, “I’m going to fuck you up your ass after I beat it, bitch.”

As soon as she was clear of the inn’s door, Tara stepped to her right and pivoted around to face Norring. She immediately ducked, as he was mid-swing with a punch.

He’d tried to take her out before she was ready. Before the inn’s crowd came outside to watch the fight.

She stayed low and rushed him, shoving him in the gut. Off balance, he stumbled down the stairs that led up to the inn before regaining his balance.

Tara shook her head slowly at him, to shame him. She kept her eyes on him as she walked down the stairs. He didn’t approach, probably suspecting she’d be able to kick him in the head while she had the higher ground.

She heard people coming out of the inn. There were mumbles of ‘fight’, but otherwise the crowd was silent. Here for the show.

Norring had positioned himself in the middle of the street, arms raised, ready to punch.

Tara circled him, also raising her fists. He wasn’t as big as Shum gro-Ulfish, but she couldn’t let him land punches. She needed him to go down fast.

They circled each other, looking for an opening. Tara could hear mumbling, but not make out anything the crowd was saying. She needed to focus.

Norring lunged at her and swung. She dodged it easily, but he kept pressing, and she found herself backpedaling. They were the two best melee fighters Torell had in the garrison, and Norring’s footwork proved it. Tara found herself ducking, then rolling to stay away from his fists. Their paces matched, each able to switch direction and keep the other from getting behind them, or find any advantage.

Wear him out, she thought. He wasn’t giving her any chance to step in. She needed him tired, so he’d make a mistake.

He went for a leg sweep. Tara saw it in time, jumped over the swinging leg, then shot out her left leg. Her kick landed, and she heard the crunch of his ribs as she cracked them.

He roared as he dropped to a knee, clutching his side.

She went in for the finishing shot, meaning to break his nose with a punch.

He twisted on her, though, in spite of the cracked ribs, and she missed. Before she could recover and back away, Norring’s return punch landed. Tara felt her nose break.

The crush of bones was loud in her head. The pain was sharp, spikes stabbing her everywhere. Trying to pull in a breath, she couldn’t, until her brain remembered to use her mouth now. Her nose was useless. Blood seem to be flowing from everywhere.

This was what it felt like, she realized. All those noses she’d broken. She had no idea. No wonder it usually had ended previous fights.

She thought of all the beatings by Father. He’d never broken a bone. Deep bruises, cuts, deep pain, yes. Never the sharp shock of a broken bone.

Even the bear attack hadn’t broken a bone. Torn all her muscles and tendons, yes. Nearly killed her, yes. Broken bone, no.

She needed to get up. She needed to heal her face. Her hands were slick with blood. Why did faces bleed so much? The punch had knocked her to her knees. Tara shifted into one knee down position, left knee still bent, her right foot planted on the ground, ready to push her to her feet.

She looked toward Norring, in time to see his left boot inches from her face, about to kick her in the head and end this.

She heard Mira’s voice in her head.


The wave exploded from her.

Perhaps it was because he was off balance as he swung his leg. Perhaps it was the height difference, Tara still in a kneeling position, Norring standing. Tara didn’t know how high any waves emanating from her were. She knew they shot out in every direction, but was it a wall of force that slammed into people? The height of the wave determined by her height?

Whatever its size, the wave lifted Norring into the air and flung him far. He flew down the road and into the posts at the top of the stairs that led to the shop, Oddities and Curiosities, which sat at least fifty meters from the inn.

The sound of Norring’s bones breaking was loud, distinct. Far louder than his cracked ribs or her broken nose.

He landed with an audible thud. Tara could tell by his screams and the way his legs lay angled wrong, turned away from his upper body, that she’d broken not only his legs, but his pelvis, too.

She climbed to her feet and looked at him. He was staring at her, his face a jumble of pain, surprise, and hatred. She kept her eyes on him as she cast a healing spell on herself, biting her tongue to keep from yelling in pain as her nose stitched itself back together. She didn’t want him to hear her cry out. She couldn’t show him any weakness.

She couldn’t heal him. Someone needed to, though. And fast.

Their eyes remained locked for another moment. Tara considered saying something to him. But, what? She wasn’t even sure what message her eyes were sending him. Not pity and not empathy. She felt cold, numb to his suffering.

“You…bitch,” he muttered, as if speaking took effort.

No. She didn’t have anything to say to him.

She turned around and saw the crowd. Everyone was silent. Giving her the same look people did when her waves made an appearance. Shock and fear. A struggle to understand.

She felt too tired to care. In this moment, she wanted to go lie down and sleep for a few days. This wasn’t a victory, just something long overdue.

One thought fought through. The crowd was silent. And still standing.

Her wave hadn’t hurt them. Only Norring.

Mira’s teaching had worked.

Several Legion solders came around the corner and rushed over to Norring. A battle mage was among them. Tara watched her start a healing spell on him.

“Come with me.” Captain Torell was suddenly standing in front of her, his face stern, angry. Had he seen any of the fight?

Tara sighed and followed him.

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2E 586 – The Speech

“Gentlemen! I am honored by your presence,” Tara Geonette said.

She smiled widely and spread her arms in a welcoming gesture. The three mages, the members of the Order of the Black Worm, all turned and nodded at her. An Imperial and two Bretons. Tara knew Mannimarco’s influence had spread all over Tamriel at the height of his power. Now that he had supposedly been brought into Coldharbour, that part of Oblivion controlled by Malog Bal, she wondered if his influence was waning. Rumors claimed he was still alive. Somewhere.

Tara spared a glance for Bedore. He looked nervous. Lysona had probably said something to him about not seeking Tara’s approval before bringing Black Worm worshipers here. She sent him a soft look, hoping it would lull him.

“Bedore has told us much of your order,” the Imperial said, as if he led the small group. He bowed deeply. “I am Rufinus. This is Theodyn and Noleon.” He pointed to the two Bretons, who both bowed.

“We’ve heard wonderful things about you,” Noleon said. His voice was high-pitched, which somehow fit his hook nose and thin face. “A leader unlike any other.”

“We’ve been looking for someone worthy of our devotion,” Theodyn said. He was taller than Noleon, with heavy eyes. “Mannimarco had his time. We look for someone new.”

Tara smiled again. “Then, you have chosen the perfect day to come,” she said. “Today, all followers of the Fire Queen learn the next evolution of our order.”

She reached out and lightly placed her hands on the backs of Theodyn and Noleon, who she’d carefully stepped between. She quickly traced the pattern with her fingers, keeping her touch light, so they wouldn’t feel it through their mage robes. “I hope you’ll stay and listen.”

“Perfect,” Rufinus said, smiling. Tara stepped over to him, and also placed her hand on his upper back, as if guiding him forward towards the meeting hall they stood outside of.

“If you’ll indulge my preference, please sit in the last row of chairs,” she said as she quickly traced the same pattern. “I’ve already arranged for my followers to sit in a particular order.”

Everyone, Bedore followed behind Tara and their guests, stepped inside the large library and meeting room Tara had ordered her followers build in the bottom of the tower. The walls were lined with floor to ceiling bookcases, which were slowly filling up with various volumes members were collecting. Only about a third of the bookcases stood empty now.

The center of the room was filled with a mix of benches and chairs, all facing the raised flooring, which was the stage, and podium. The entire tower was built of stone. The stage had been built with stone as well, complete with short, stone steps leading to it. The podium was made of the same wood as the bookcases and benches. All built new. The chairs were temporary, waiting for more wood to be sourced for new sets of benches. Tara insisted they switch sources after a few purchases for any supplies purchased outside the property. This included lumber for building. She didn’t want any supplier to wonder at the volume they needed. Best the order not stand out in any way. So far, there had been enough stone on the land, from extra the previous owners had never used, or could be dug up along the edge of the property.

Tara had wanted the room configured so up to seventy-five people could sit and listen to any speech. There were fifty-six followers in the order now, besides Tara, Bedore, and Lysona. The size felt perfect. The time was now.

Most followers were already seated as they walked in. The rest stood around, chatting.

Several followers bowed deeply at her, and she smiled and nodded back. Others nodded slightly to the guest mages. They were curious.

“Please, gentlemen,” Tara said and pointed to the final row of chairs on the right side of the room. This row sat empty, as did the row in front of them. Perfect.

“Here?” Rufinus asked. He was eyeing the closer row, or perhaps he thought guests should sit all the way in the front.

“Please,” Tara said. She gave him a look of steel, to cut off any thought of argument. “When I signal, please stand, and I’ll introduce you to everyone,” she finished.

All three sat in the chairs, any offense they might have been mustering seemed sated.

Tara and Bedore continued forward. She whispered to him, “Thank you for bringing them.”

Bedore looked confused for a split second, then smiled at her. He must’ve felt vindicated. “They’ll be a great addition. What we can learn…” he started.

Tara cut him off. “Later.” They’d reached the foot of the stage.  She turned to face him, knowing the entire room was watching them. Everyone knew they were a couple, but Tara had heard the murmurings that Bedore’s eyes wandered. Their actions while being watched would speak volumes.

She rested her hands on his chest, set her eyes soft, and leaned in to whisper in his ear. “Today’s speech is important. You’ve given me the greatest gift by bringing them today. Thank you.” She pulled back and gave him a quick kiss on the lips before stepping up on stage.

Bedore sat in his reserved spot, on the right front row, closest to the aisle that ran down the center of the room. Lysona sat in her spot, on the left front bench, also closest to the aisle. Perfectly positioned. Just as Tara wanted.

At the podium, she reached into the single pocket her armor had, pulled out what she needed, and set them on the podium. She then stepped in front of it. She didn’t want to be half hidden behind it. Everyone needed to see her fully. To be captivated.

She took a moment to survey the room. She smiled. Bedore smiled at her, happy and relieved at his success. Lysona smiled also, in her usual rapt way. The rest of her followers showed various degrees of smiles and curiosity. The three mages studied her. Curious and reserved.

Tara held out her arms. “Thank you all for coming. Not that I gave you a choice,” she said.

Genuine laughs greeted her. She turned and pointed to the two banners behind her, one on each side, flanking her. They hung from the ceiling, and waved slightly as the air in the room shifted. They’d been installed this morning. Each banner was made of a thick, durable canvas, which had been dyed red. Woven into it with black thread, was an emblem. A circle resembling the sun, with lines as rays, sat above a single tree. The tree was tall, with branches reaching up from a single trunk, outside of a few which curved away, then back into the trunk. The overall effect was a tree, reaching for the sun, as if the sun were its only goal.

“Special thanks goes to Madena, for designing the symbol of our order, of the Order of the Fire Queen. She understood my vision and made it reality.” Tara smiled at Madena, who sat next to Lysona. “New mage robes for all of you are being made now, with the emblem on them.” She gestured to several followers, who’d been tasked with sewing.

Tara started slowly pacing the stage, gesturing with her hands as she spoke. She knew moving around would help keep all eyes on her. Now, to give them their hope.

“You’re all probably wondering why I didn’t have an emblem filled with fire, or flames,” she said, smiling. Several giggles and laughs erupted. Most people nodded their heads.

“Two reasons,” she held up two fingers with her left hand. “First, to help our order hide in plain sight. Fire would have been predictable and too visible.” She paused. “The second, and greater reason, is that our sun, Magnus, is the greatest fire. Magnus is the architect of Mundus. Greatest of the et’Ada, the original spirits. He is the source of our magic. His commitment to mortals, to our mortal plane of Mundus, shows itself every single day, by what of himself he left behind.”

She pointed again at the banners.

“We are the tree,” she continued, picking up her pace. “We, this cult, this order, this…family, reach towards Magnus. For the greatest of glory. For immortality.”  She stopped pacing and studied everyone.

About a third of her followers seemed immediately to understand the weight of what she’d said. Dawning crossed their faces like a glorious sunrise. She felt excitement from them.

“Conjuration is the greatest school of magic,” she said, pacing more. “It gives us the potential, the gift, of making ourselves immortal.” She looked at the guest mages. Theodyn and Rufinus were whispering to each other. Noleon seemed enraptured by her words.

“You’ve all come to me these last years, at different levels of magical ability. I hope, regardless of where you started, and where your skills are now, that some of what I’ve shown you with conjuration has given you new levels of appreciation for what it can do.”

She stopped pacing and stood to the right of the podium, keeping it in easy reach.

“Some of you are less gifted with deep reserves of magicka,” she said, smiling. “Fear not. Everyone in this order has a place here, a job here. A purpose to serve the order. To serve your queen.”

She gave them another smile, this one tinged with slyness.

“Everyone in this room right now will help reach our ultimate goal, the true goal of this order. To become immortal. Every single one of us.” She paused.

All her followers remained focused on her. Some seemed to still be processing what she’d said. The weight of it. The idea of becoming immortal. Everyone in the order was younger, no one over the age of thirty-two. In their prime. A time for life to feel full of possibilities. To be something you’d want to never end.

“After today, no new members. Do not invite any outsiders into our order. All future order members will come from within,” she said.

Confusion spread among a few faces. Tara didn’t mind. Details could be explained later. Now was the time to add some fear to their hope.

Tara gestured at the three guests to stand up.

Theodyn, Noleon, and Rufinus stood slowly. All looked confused. They must have wondered if they’d just been forced into the order.

“Everyone, please turn and meet our guests,” Tara said. “They’ve all come from the Order of the Black Worm.”

Muttering started. Several followers nodded at the guests.

“No new outside members from this moment forward,” Tara said. “We are all we need. I am all you need.”

Tara clapped her hands together in one large, loud movement.

The fire runes she’d placed on the backs of Theodyn, Noleon, and Rufinus exploded, engulfing the men in flames.

Their screams pierced the room, the entire tower, with agony. Tara picked up the three black soul gems from the podium and guided the men’s souls into them. She allowed herself a brief moment to enjoy the rapture that came with hearing their screams, watching their bodies burn, then collapse into dying husks. Adding to their screams were those from her followers. Those closest to the mages jumped back, afraid to catch fire. Nearly everyone looked shocked and scared. Tara doubted any had seen a rune set off that way. If one didn’t know, she’d simply clapped her hands and ignited them instantly.

Bedore looked the most shocked. He looked up at her with wide eyes; more fear than she’d ever seen from him.


Lysona was the sole follower who didn’t look scared. She was laughing and clapping. She looked up at Tara, even more rapt than before. Tara gave her a quick wink and smile.

Feeling the souls were secure in their gems, Tara cast a frost spell at the burning husks of the mages. The chairs the men had been sitting in had also caught fire. Tara made sure all the flames were extinguished before stopping the spell.

The room had filled with the odor of burnt flesh and smoke. A sharp irritant assaulting everyone’s nose. The better to hold their fear longer, Tara thought.

“Sit,” she commanded.

Everyone sat back down and looked at her. She put the soul gems in her pocket.

“We are all we need. I am all you need. Together, we will grow this order from within,” she said.

“What I mean by those words is simple.” She gave them all a smile. “Some of you have already coupled up.” She paced slowly, not that she needed to. No one dared look away. “I’ve even heard rumors there are some pregnancies.”

She paused her pacing.

“This is what I want. If you are in a relationship, have children. We grow the order from within.” She nodded for emphasis. “If you are single, come see me. I’ll match you with someone. If your natural attractions draw you to someone you normally can’t have children with…” Tara looked down at Lysona and held her gaze. Lysona gazed back, and smiled. “…come see me. I want you to fully realize your natural attraction, but I will need you to have children, as well. There are solutions.”

She paced again until she stood at the center of the stage.

“Every couple is to be registered. I must know whom is with whom. We will conduct ceremonies for everyone who wants to celebrate their binding. As you all have children, I must know who they are. Lineage must strictly be tracked. It is essential.”

She smiled wide and held her arms out, wanting to send some hope back to them.

“I am with child. My first.” She pointed at Bedore, who had a fresh look of shock on his face. She’d not told him. “Bedore and I will be among the first to celebrate the next evolution of our family. Our order.”

“Here, in your lifetime, I promise you will become immortal. Your children, and their children, and so forth, will also. It is essential to us, the original order members, to grow the order from within.”

She clasped her hands together and held them over her heart. “I will have more details for you over time. For now, I thank you for your loyalty to me. I will not let you down. Dismissed.”

4E 203 – Family Traits

Mira stared at the painting of Tara Geonette and marveled that she’d not noticed as a child it was protected by a thin magical barrier.

No wonder it looked so bright, and fresh, so many centuries after it’d been painted.

Then again, she’d avoided spending time at home as much as possible, even before Tara was born.

Home. She’d not called it that for a long time now.

Her parents’ home had always felt cold, distant; a reflection of their marriage. The only passion they shared was violence. Mira had felt blessed to be so good with magic early. To have a reason to stay away.

Was the magic a curse, though?

She studied the painting of Tara Geonette, hanging so proudly in her parent’s living room. It’d always been in this favored spot. Untouched, clean. Never even knocked off the wall by one of Tara’s waves. No wonder. Why hadn’t she noticed the barrier before?

Because you didn’t want to see it.

At a glance, Geonette and Tara looked so much alike. The hair. That intense dark red that Mira still thought of as fire and passion combined. So striking in the light.

Geonette and Tara shared green eyes, as well. The greens were different, though. Tara’s trended slightly blue, with a smokiness to them. Geonette’s were a brilliant bright green. The woman looked intense. On the edge of anger, and somehow also disgust. Whoever had painted her so long ago seemed to have captured her perfectly.

Little Tara was also intense, of course. The anger, the waves. She’d grown into a passionate woman, from what Katla had told her, and what Mira had observed in their brief time together. Tara’s emotions were tainted by sadness, though. A deep gulf Mira wasn’t sure she’d ever cross.

It’s your fault.

Mira pushed the thought away. What was done was done. No use dwelling or crying now. She’d fix it, if she could.

Mira studied Geonette’s facial features. Here, the differences with Tara were obvious. Tara had a roundness, a softness to her. She was, frankly, beautiful in the ways so many women wished to be. Her face held some perfect balance of features that led to her overall striking appearance. Her sum was greater than her parts. Even the scars on her face didn’t distract.

Geonette was attractive, Mira supposed, but no more than Mira herself was. It was hard to be objective. Mira wasn’t attracted to women, but no matter natural attractions, one knew when a person stood out. Geonette didn’t in the way Tara did.

Her features were sharper, with a narrower chin, more freckles, sharper nose, and slightly squinted eyes. One could see the resemblance, the family resemblance to her as an ancestor. Mira thought about her own facial features. Geonette looked most like Mom, though Mom’s hair was raven black, now streaked with gray, and her eyes a pale blue.

Father’s hair was as black as Mom’s, his eyes a dark blue. There were so many black haired people in the family, Mira had thought of raven hair and blue eyes as Geonette traits.

Redheads were less common, usually skipping a generation, or there’d be one out of a slew of siblings and cousins.

For all her research of magic in Tamriel across the eras, it’d not occurred to her to study her own family’s history with magic until now. The Geonette’s seemed to be above average among Bretons for magical ability. Many a Geonette had been a high ranking official in the Mage’s Guild, back when the Guild existed. Even now, she had a lot of cousins spread across the Synod and College of Whispers.

None as powerful as her with magic, though.

Or Tara.

Why was that?

Mira pulled her gaze from Geonette’s painted eyes and looked closely at the magic barrier protecting the painting. How long had it been up? Who had cast it? Why? Why was this painting so important? Why was Geonette viewed so proudly in this house?

They were direct descendants of her. Mom, Mira and Tara, were great, great…whatever about forty generations were…granddaughters of the woman. Out of the family that were Geonette’s, or related, they were the true direct line.

Maybe she’d get some answers when Mom and Father got back to the house. They’d taken a rare outing together into the city. Mira sent up a short prayer to Magnus that Katla was following orders and staying in her room at the inn. Wayrest was large, but they couldn’t be too careful here.

Mira let her eyes trace the edges of the barrier. It covered the frame as well as the painting itself. The barrier’s glow was the softest of whites, giving the frame and painting the faintest of a frosted look, as if one was looking at it through a fogged window. Mira wondered what would remove the barrier. She knew some spells that should do the job. She wouldn’t know for sure unless she tried.

The frame of the painting was cypress wood, varnished a rich, dark color. It still looked fresh. A master framer had to have built it. It would’ve cost a lot of coin in its day.

She studied the edges, admiring the joining of the corners, the seams so thin and smooth as to be almost invisible. Mira caught her breath at the lower right corner.

Stepping towards the painting, she put her face as close to the barrier as she dared.

Burnt into the lower right corner, nearly black in color, was an emblem of some kind. It was less than six inches tall, and at a glance could’ve been mistaken for a dark knot in the wood.

Had it been placed there to be missed?

The emblem, symbol, Mira didn’t know what to call it, was of a tree underneath a circular symbol. A sun, maybe. The sun, Magnus, maybe. Yes, as if the tree was reaching for Magnus himself.

Those that worshipped Kynareth held high reverence for nature, especially trees. Mira thought of the ancient Eldergleam tree, one many thought of as a tree of life. History claimed it was the oldest living thing in Tamriel.

The tree in the symbol did not remind Mira of the Eldergleam, or the Gildergreen, the great offspring tree in the city of Whiterun in Skyrim. The tree in the symbol was tall, with few branches. What ones there were, all looked thick, and either reached upwards towards the sun or curled back into the main trunk. The burnt carving was small, though, so the details were hard to confirm. She didn’t like the tree, though. It felt off.

Mira thought back to her research and reading over the years. To Divines and Daedra, and what cults she knew of. She couldn’t recall the symbol in any of her past research. She was no expert, though, on cults or religion. She studied mostly for magical purposes.

It was on a frame which held a painting of Geonette. That had to mean something. She’d add it to the list of things for her and Katla to look through in the books she’d gathered.

They had not made the headway Mira had hoped for. The Order of the Fire Queen had hidden their tracks well. Or, been too small to matter.

The chickens outside picked up their clucking. Mom and Father must be home.

Mira sat in a chair in the living room, specifically choosing the chair furthest from the painting, and opened one of the books she’d been carrying, The Oblivion Crisis.

The book covered the great event of the Third Era, well, the greatest event that had nearly brought the world to an end. Instead, the crisis had been averted by the Hero of Kvatch, and Martin Septim, the last of the Septim Dynasty. His death ended the era and harkened the Fourth Era and the Mede Dynasty, which now ruled the Empire. Well, until recently.

Mira had not paid close attention to politics while in Black Marsh, but once she’d returned to Cyrodiil a couple of years ago, she’d heard of key events. Emperor Mede II seemed to have disappeared. Rumors ran rampant the Dark Brotherhood had assassinated him, but there was no confirmation.

There was some new King, or Emperor, claiming the throne by right of combat. If Mira had heard the news correctly, he was a bandit with an army who’d assaulted the Imperial City and driven out the Elder Council, the wealthy men and women who, at times, really ran the Empire.

Mira had read this news while leaving Skyrim and heading to High Rock. When she was ready to head back to Cyrodiil, to Chorrol, where she had a place and felt most at home, what then? Would this new king be causing any problems? A thought for later.

Mom stepped inside, then Father. Mira closed the book, about the only book she trusted them to see the cover of, and stood.

“Good trip?” she asked.

“Yes!” Mom exclaimed. Mom, to everyone else known as Elayne Geonette, displayed a rare smile. “I was able to acquire some lovely dresses that your father didn’t feel suitable for the store. Not fancy enough.”

“My clientele has far greater taste than you do,” Father said. “The Rests’ Finest means the finest. Why that Redguard even thought I’d want to offer these to true nobles…” His gruff voice trailed off as he headed down the hall to their bedroom, most likely to wash up before dinner.

Mom ignored the insult and set down the wrapped dresses on a table near Mira’s chair.

“I suppose I should get dinner going,” she mumbled and headed to the kitchen.

“Need any help?” Mira offered. She’d not thought to start anything. She never cooked, had not bothered to learn much, even out on her own. Alchemy, she knew. Food ingredients for a good meal, not so much. She was used to meals at inns or group meals in a conclave or guild.

“Peel and cut up these carrots for me.” Mom set some to the side for her.

Following any instructions Mom gave her, they worked quickly and soon had a meal of grilled chicken breast, seasoned garlic carrots, and a warm braided loaf of bread.

Father came out of the bedroom as they set the table.

They ate quietly for a while. Mira found herself glancing at the painting of Geonette. How to broach the subject with them?

“Have you met with Sir Dalomax yet?” Father asked. He’d plowed through the chicken and was picking at the carrots.

“I meet with him in the morning,” Mira said.

“You should tell him to come by the shop,” Father said between bites of bread. He’d broken off a hunk of the loaf, ignoring the careful slicing of half of it Mom had done when they first sat down. “Even better, tell him to send his wife. I always charm the women.” He winked at Mira, as if she should be impressed.

“That would be inappropriate,” Mira said. She assumed her stern, teaching voice. The one she’d had to develop over the years when lesser mages belittled her research, or magic prowess.

It felt strange to use it on Father. She did not question how she spoke to people. Most knew nothing of magic, including half the mages she came across, and certainly, too many people lacked decorum. Her father was one of those types, she reminded herself. He was a noble wannabe, desiring it so much his greed and unfettered ambition displayed itself constantly. How he charmed anyone in his store surprised Mira.

People were complicated, she reminded herself. Everyone had multiple sides to themselves. No one was one thing.

Father paused mid chew and looked at her. A flash of anger passed through his face, then disappeared. Mira rarely came home. He seemed to sense an outburst from him would lead to her leaving immediately. He’d lose access to any noble gossip he hoped to gleam from her. It was the unspoken and uneasy alliance they’d maintained for over a decade now. Mira would visit occasionally, if Father was on his best behavior.

“Still,” he said as he finished chewing. “You could also drop the shop’s name, if it fits the conversation.”

“Of course,” Mira gave him a short nod.

“What are you researching now?” Mom piped in. Ever eager to move the conversation away from what might set off Father, Mira thought. He did seem to have genuine interest in Mira’s magical studies, at least.

“You know I can’t discuss any details,” Mira said. “It’s important no one knows what I’m working on until I get a book published.” She leaned forward slightly, though, wanting to draw them in. “But, I will tell you both I’m studying the history of the Third Era, particularly the Oblivion Crisis. Lots of magic to try and understand from how the gates were opened.” She sat back to judge their reaction.

She watched Father and Mom exchange a look. Unreadable.

“What kind of magic do you hope to learn from such study?” Father asked. He’d given up picking at the carrots. He’d never been a fan of them, and Mira sometimes wondered if Mom cooked them just to spite him.

“You’re not thinking to learn how to open a gate to Oblivion?” Mom asked. She seemed concerned.

“Of course not,” Mira said. She tried to moderate her voice, to not sound as chiding as she would have had anyone else asked the question. “Research is important, though. Even if it’s into the…darker of magic schools.” Had that phrase sufficed?

Father nodded. After a moment, Mom did, too.

“You’ve studied necromancy?” Father asked.

“Of course,” Mira said. “I am a master wizard in all schools.”

Neither Mom nor Father had been especially good mages. They knew some magic, could heal minor wounds, but had never progressed. Which is why they’d always needed Mira or scrolls to calm Tara during her waves.

Before the waves started. You know this. The fire magic scared them.

“Studying history has gotten me curious,” Mira said. She nodded at the painting. “I’ve always wanted to learn more about Tara Geonette. Mom, you said she was a witch in the Glenmoril Coven?”

“Oh, yes,” Mom said quickly. “For years.” She glanced at Father.

“I didn’t realize they went on to have children. The witches,” Mira said.

Another glance was exchanged. Like a silent conversation between them.

“Usually, no,” Mom continued. “She left the coven while still young. She never started any of the rituals that lead to a true hag, or hagraven.”

Mira nodded and waited.

Father cleared his throat. “You really are interested in our family history?”

Mira nodded again. “I admire all great mages. She’s had such a revered spot in the house, in our home, I’d like to know more. I assume I can give her credit for my magical abilities.” She kept her face serious. Would they accept her reasons?

Mom seemed excited. Her voice kept rising in pitch. “I think she was the greatest mage the Geonette family has ever known,” she finished, smiling.

Father cleared his throat again and gave Mom a withering look.

“She’s definitely where your magic comes from. The greatest trait a family can pass down to its descendants,” he said. He now had a sense of pride in his voice.

“How many children did she have?” Mira asked.

“Three,” Mom said. “Two daughters and a son. Lysona, Tara, and Tristard. We’re descended from Tara Geonette the Younger.”

Father coughed and stood. He sent another look Mom’s way.

“I’m off to smoke my pipe, then to bed. Have another early day at the store tomorrow.” He stepped outside without another word.

When he seemed safely out of earshot, Mom leaned in and whispered. “I’ll tell you more about her later. Your father doesn’t like all the attention she receives. Thinks his side of the family had important mages, too.”

“Did they?” Mira asked as she stood to help clear the table. She’d never heard anything about the Blatons and a history of important mages. She’d thought them an entirely merchant family.

Though, rare was the Breton family without at least one or two significant mages in their history.

“None are as important as Tara Geonette,” Mom said. “She star…well, she’s the important one.”

She seemed to want to say more. Mira could practically feel the waves of pride flowing from her.

“There were some important Blatons during the Third Era. I’ll tell you about them, since you’re studying the Crisis.”

As she prepared for bed later that night, Mira went over her new notes, hoping she’d written down all the names correctly. She and Katla had fresh leads.

What else had been new about the evening? Mira mused.


It occurred to Mira this was the first time she’d ever seen her mother so animated. So happy.

(*note, some of the lore now follows not only Skyrim, but events mentioned in Rigmor of Cyrodiil)